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2010-08-28T23:37:00.000-07:00

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A Brand NEW SEMESTER!!! A Brand New SHING YIING!!! :D

2010-08-23T08:48:00.000-07:00

A brand new semester!! A New Start, to be honest, I am a little lazy to update most of my stuff... my blog has been left out for quite some time.. I will update more often.. :)

After a year staying with Amy Soon and Crystal Wang, I really think that i had learned a lot from both of them.. :) how to be more independent, successful... feel so sad both of them will be graduating this semester... :( NOOoooooooooooo.. :P

MLC is COMING in 2 months time!!! Can u imagine that I haven't been studying!!!! NOooooo..

lets talk about summer.. summer i went back to malaysia for an internship and i am really glad that i got a wonderful working experience.. :) I got different opportunities.. :) & met many friends from the company.. I felt more confident than before.. I am still fighting towards what i want.. :)

This year's summer was different than before.. most of my friends were not back in malaysia.. :( I met with my ji mui Yuen Wah.. :) (really miss her) and also my performance friends from Halo Forest & Mainstream.. I am so glad that some of my friends are preparing for their album!! :) (FIGHT FIGHT FIGHT!!!) and 2 of my friends who i used to perform with them "Thomas Jack" are really successful now.. They are filming different kind of shows in Taiwan.. wish them all the best..

I really miss my family.. (although not so much of homesick).. but is the best to stay at home where you belongs to.. I love my family a lot.. (I cried sometimes in my room :P) but anyway.. my parents & 2 lovely brothers always support me.. I always felt secure or whatever i should say... to have such a great family.. ;)

I am kinda lazy to type.. my first class will be starting in an hour & half.. :P so i guess i should prepare a bit?? :P I will try to update more often.. but i am a little lazy to post pictures.. :P so i will upload more on facebook.. :) oh ya.. below is the video that I Milk the Cow at the state fair.. :D

Have a great semester!!! :)

WORKING AS A STUDENT CALLER!!

2010-02-16T20:22:00.000-08:00

well.. work as a student caller for 2 days already.. and my first day.. really sucks.. i am so nervous... until i wanna run away from it.. is like.. whenever someone pick up the call.. my heart bit super fast.. i really don't know y am i nervous.. no1 will know me.. they just hear my voice.. ish.. i almost fainted... i dunno y.. seriously..

i talked to jason and crystal about it because they worked as a student caller in the past.. well.. they told me is normal.. because they were nervous on their first day too.. hey.. think about it.. there is a girl who is a first time caller.. she made a 825 dollars... and she manage to talk to them.. and my first call.. someone sounds fierce and starts to yell at me.. i am so sorry and i am a little silly.. i don't know what to say and just called my supervisor.. sorry.. ish.. don mention about it..

the 2nd day was ok.. 3 hours sitting down and calling ppl is not fun at all.. :P but i do admit i learned a lot.. i really need to improve my english.. damn it.. well.. i hope that i can improve and become better and better... wish me luck..

GREAT LIFE!!!

2010-02-10T20:49:00.000-08:00

i have not been updating my blog.. yes i know.. :P many things change and is really happening in my life.. i had lots of stuff and exciting stuff which i have not post her.. will post it when i am free.. :)

study for p right now which is in april.. i don wanna fail it.. >.< hmmm.. recently, i was planning and was thinking very hard.. what is my goal in my life.. :P i am not gonna post it here... haha.. i really wanna thank my parents giving me the opportunity to study overseas and i learned a lot.. i have to say that i am more independent than before.. still as "kia su" as before.. i really love both of my housemates Amy Soon and Crystal Wang.. I improved my English a little from them.. :P well.. i still can't really speak well compare to Americans.. :P haha.. (well obviously because i did not grow up in a "english" family)..

currently working in a coffee shop... making coffee and smoothies.. :P (hey ppl.. i can cook now ok..) although not as good but at least i can survive!!! hahahaha.... I work at the phonathon too.. :) calling the alumni.. build up networking.. is a challenge to me because i have to speak well.. I am glad that i got chosen.. :) is an experience to me because i really wanna improve my communication skills.. :)

hmm... will be volunteering for a modeling show.. :D with my housemate Amy Soon.. :) 1st time modeling.. (i hope i don't walk like a horse)... aha... talking about modeling... Both of us drive to the shop to try our outfit.. when we type the address on google map.. it only shows west des moines... so we drive to west des moines... but is actually at DES MOINES!!! (in US if there is WEST and without WEST is totally diff).. ish.. ish... and on the way to the shop.. since is winter now.. the road is very icy.. and both of us have no experience in driving in winter... (obviously Amy has to drive because I have not drive on the left side before!!!).. ok.. here comes the exciting part... we were looking on the gps.. and did not pay attention to the traffic light... and than when it turned yellow... Amy break... (during winter.. u can't break right away on the icy road because ur car will "spin").. so.. the car just turn to the left right away.. and i was like OH NO OH NO!!! WA!!! EH!!! YEEE!!! (i don't even remember what i said.. :P) and thank God there is no car driving straight away.. and there is no car behind us is driving fast... and no car coming.. if not something might had happen... phew!!! but i don't know y both of us are still laughing... :P well.. it was a dangerous experience...

i guess i have to stop here.. head back to studies.. :)

florida trip

2010-01-17T11:46:00.000-08:00

ok... is really late now i know... i just came back from florida 2 weeks ago.. it was sooooooooooo suppppperrrrr funnnnn!!!!! haha... too many things to post.. so i don't think i will post any photo here... just go to my facebook if u wanna see any photo... haha... everything is posted..

so on the 21st of dec.. we arrived in orlando... it's really late so we just had macd and went back to hotel and Zzzzz...

on the 22nd.. we went to disney world.. 1st day!! semangatnya!!! :P went to animal kingdom... we took almost every rides... this is the best ride we sat... it's called expedition everest disney... i took from youtube... let u guys see the ride... :) there were many awesome shows.. like lion king... finding nemo.. :)

expedition everest

on the 23rd.. we went to hollywood studio... we had the best ride ever... aerosmith.. the super fast roller coaster.. haha... is so dark inside and super fast till i don remember how many 360 were there... :P and towers of terror.. free fall about 13th floors.. haha.. fun!! oh ya!! and AMERICAN IDOL EXPERIENCE!!! me and gary went for audition.. congrats to Gary cause he went through a few rounds.. i did not pass through.. but i was happy.. cause is like some experience for me... i won't let go any chance to sing!! haha... oh yea.. and i loved the show fantasmic... i took the whole video.. sorry is too long to post here.. :P

towers of terror

aerosmith.. here the sound.. feel the speed

stunt show... short preview for u..

on the 24th... christmas eve... we went to magic kingdom... oh my!! it was so tired.. and i went back at 1am... :P to see all the parade and everything.. pretty silly huh?? but i kinda feel like it's worth it.. :D just went to my facebook and see all the picture in magic kingdom..
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on the 25th.. we went to Epcot.. last day in disney world...raining.. but we had all the rides too.. we went to the g-force thing... and we wanted to experience the g-force... we ran out of time so we couldn't had the "advance" g-force ride.. so we sit the "looser" ride without g-force... cause some1 "puke" inside the ride and we had to wait for them to clean up... epcot was pretty nice because we get to walk through all the countries... :) japan, mexico, canada, paris..... a lot...

on the 26th.. we went to Sea world.. :D it was so cool!! i love the Manta ride... haha.. and the roller coasted was awesome too!! all the show was so cool where u see the animals acting... :) i will post a video here...

manta ride.. :)

Shamu!! awesome whale..

on the 27th.. we went to universal studio... both parks a day.. we bought the "express pass".. feeling like VIP.. and because of the pass we are able to finish everything.. :D haha... my friend Regi took a video of the ride "doctor doom free fall".. post it here... and i will post a few rides.. cause universal studio ride are soooo coooooll... had too much roller coaster d... :P

the hulk...

doctor doom's fear fall.. took by regi..

on the 28th.. we were suppost to go to bush garden... but we were tired of all the rides and theme park.. so we rent a car and went to clear water beach in tampa.. the sand was sooo soft and nice.. and also white... ncie beach.. but the wind was sooo strong and cold... ish... i dare not take of my jacket... we went bush garden at 6.00pm.. :P haha.. it closed at 8.30pm... me and natalie were so headache because of someone's driving.. :P i don wanna write it here who is it.. :P did not get to sit the 90 degrees roller coaster.. too headache..

on the 29th.. we went to downtown disney... shopping shopping!!! haha... we wanted to go to rainforest for dinner but we had to wait for almost 2 hours... argh... so we just had sandwhich.. bought a few things in downtown disney.. :) haha..

on the 30th and 31st.. we went to miami... first day arived.. rent a bike.. and we cycle around.. we ate something cool first day which is mediteranean food!! so nice!!! hahaha... and on the 31st.. we went to south beach and also JET SKI!!! WOHOOOOOOO!!!! post video here.. miss the weather in miami... soo hot and warm!!! :) i count down at the beach which is next to so many clubs... underage.. couldn't get in.. sound so sad.. :P

jet ski!!!

on the 1st of jan.. we went back to orlando.. :( me and natalie went to prime outlet and shop!!! did not shop that much because my bag was full!!!! ish...

on the 2nd of jan.. time to say byebye.. :( although i am super tired and exhausted.. but i really miss the trip.. and miss natalie... hope we had a chance to meet in other trip!!!

CFUM performance vs Baby Tade's Birthday

2010-01-14T14:04:00.000-08:00

one month ago.. went to perform for a kid's church.. is like a talent night show... sang "reflection" and gary sang "can you feel the love tonight".. never really prepared.. so my singing kinda suckie.. :P haha.. is ok la... all the kids perform too.. such a great night.. ...... dunno what to write d.. :Pall the kids..

me and gary.. :)

p.s: no other pic... sorry.. :P
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It's baby Tade's birthday.. one year old.. so cute.. :) we went to church at first and we went to a pizza place to celebrate for him.. :)

the children perfroming music in the church..

all the kids in the nursery room.. they are so cute..

me and baby tade.. :)

*LOOK HERE*

*my first cake*

present time..

ee xiang and me...

cute little justin..

big present!!!

Mummy!!! - Baby Tade and his mom.. Beth

winter break with host parents

2010-01-11T21:40:00.000-08:00

I know I am really lazy to update my blog.. but u guys can see from my facebook now.. :P haha.. photos.. so i am going to write a bit.. well.. after finals... before going to florida.. i went to my host parents house for winter gathering.. they teach me how to make lasagna.. :) had a great night... we wanted to see the lights.. but the line was too long.. so we head home.. post some pic now..

presents for my host parents and siblings..

x'mas tree

me and Isa

ee xiang and the cute little puppy

gingerbread house made by sam

thanks to my host family.. it keeps me warm.. :) guess what's in it?? :P

learn how to make lasagna

in the progress...

gingerbread cookie... :)

playing with Lydia's barbie.. :P

justin with his present

ee xiang feeding the cat Prince

TADA!!!:P

cookie!! DONE!!!

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oh yea.. the same day I went to the city tour with a lot of host parents.. is like a museum.. i just post pic than.. lazy to taip...

ISA NIGHT!!

2009-12-17T10:32:00.000-08:00

wohoo.. finish final exam d... till now only i have the time to really sit down and blog for few hours.. :) next week i am going to FLORIDA!!! WOHOO... ;P had been studying for my professional exam and i finally pass.. :) *happy*.. ok.. so get to the point...

on the november 14th which is Drake International Night!! :) I performed.. but i don't have the video to upload so you guys can go onto my facebook profile and watch la.. ;) i sang 2 songs.. "first love" & "because of you".. and i sang a part of "nobody" song from wander girls.. :) first time singing japanese and korea.. because i am suppos to represent the country "Korea".. well there is a story line.. so in the part I am suppos to act like I am a singer in a concert.. chun huh?? and than with the famous wonder girls dance "nobody" :P kinda happy because i helped out a lot in ISA night.. :) having fun and experiencing working with people all around the world.. the 5 wonder girls.. me, mary anne, ching, sam & hannah.. 5 girls with a combination of 4 countries.. :) Malaysia, Korea, China, Thailand.. we worked really well although we are from diff countries.. I am really happy with it.. :)

move on next performing for Malaysia.. we performed Asmaradana.. the story of the puteri gunung ledang.. :) well.. i dunno what to say but i will upload pic.. :)

and i become amy soon's dancer.. :) i am her backup dancer.. really learn a lot and enjoy learning dancing.. :) amy soon is such a great dancer.. :) before that... i went up randomly for a "audition" scene.. and i need to freestyle.. my freestyle is sooo bad.. when i watched the video i was like "OMG!!!" :P haha.. video are on facebook..

after that we had international food all around the world.. ;) really full that night.. haha.. k la.. lazy to write.. i post pic..

i found it on youtube without my singing.. is the NOBODY performance...

me, amy and sue ann..

SHE!! :P crystal and amy.. my best roomie ever.. :)

playing around.. :)

asmaradanians.. ;P

everyone start posing.. :P i want nobody nobody but "you".. ;P

the puteri and the dayang dayang..

the asmaradana.. almost last post..

me singing.. :)

DRAKE wonder girls.. me, sam, ching, maryanne, hannah

justin

4 wonder girls..

my host parents came and support.. :)

Halloween 2009 - harvest party & adoption party

2009-11-15T09:51:00.000-08:00

yohoo... today upload 2 post... have been busy for exams and assignments and performances... chilling now... :P

as everyone know halloween is something new for me which is not that famous in Malaysia.. I never really went to a costume party.. :( but I went to a harvest party... and my pumpkin making was quite good actually.. :P hahahaha... I will show you some of the pictures...

apple cider

pumpkin decoration

look at all the pumpkin

cute??

my pumpkin.. :P and her friend..

justin drinking apple cider.. :P

so cute.. :)

place to make caramel apple

TADA!!!!

the kids get to watch snoopy

Justin playing one of the games...

WOW!! he manage to hit into the hole.. :)

my photo.. :)

The next day... My host parents have a adoption party for Justin and Devan.. :) They are theirs forever.. :) really touch and happy for them.. :)

My host parents adoption party.. Justin & Devan.. :)

They gain themselves a lovely grandpa.. :)

yummy cakes..

this restaurant has the best iowa food..

look at the pork i ordered..

Homecoming 2009

2009-10-14T09:34:00.000-07:00

Yohoo.. is been quite a while i never update my blog.. well.. homecoming just ended few days ago.. I was very extremely happy because I get to involve on campus.. Oh well.. I went to rock climbing with outdoor leadership club too.. :) too busy to climb till no pictures taken.. :P

Oh yea.. so the title is HOMECOMING!! Is a tradition of American.. but Drake has Relays so homecoming isn't that big compare to other uni.. but than is still the 2nd biggest event in DRAKE.. :) the theme for homecoming 2009 is "BULLDOG TO THE RESCUE".. so basically the events that they organize featuring super heroes.. :) lets see.. I involve in sponsorship, prizes, and ultimate college contest... ultimate college contest is a competition btw each college which we calculate which college has the most attendance for the homecoming event.. btw.. our college has business, arts & science, pharmacy, education, journalism, and law.. :) ok.. so I will basically just summarize a few event..

october 3... the first day of the homecoming event.. :) busy helping out... decorating the whole campus.. and because it's also parents family weekend.. we had blast off lunch... :) and also movie night which shows transformers 2... hehe... show you some pic..

homecoming decoration..

blast off lunch

they perform during blust off lunch.. they sing really well.. :)

haha.. i am directing Gary sticking the paw prints.. :P

after sticking the paw prints.. we went to drake stadium.. to.........(next pic)

get SPIKES!!! haha.. pic. took after setting up.. so heavy...

october 4.. the day is interesting.. around 12pm we had window painting and powderpuff game.. :) powderpuff is a game which girls play american football and the guys become the cheerleader.. :) hahaha.. 1st time seeing it.. busy helping out with registration.. :) window painting.. obviously is paint the window.. :P oh yea.. mention bout rock climbing.. I went rock climbing later.. :) pictures here...

helping out for powderpuff

TA DA!!! ok i change to MASA shirt cause i wearing both together.. :P cold le.. :P

window painting

this is MASA's window painting.. becky posing.. :P

this is MASA team.. :)

Ziyu, Amy, and me posing with the football..

my housemates... me, christal, and amy

FIGHT!!!

the powderpuff champion!!

learning how to belay.. :P

october 6.. SUPER YOU!! and MAGICIAN.. super you.. is to test your 5 senses.. hear, smell, taste, feel, vision.. :) i think my senses quite bad.. :P busy helping out too.. but I was happy seeing ppl having FUN!! :) and the magician show by Justin Kredible was AWESOME!! he was so funny.. I did not mention to get much picture as I was busy watching but I do get a video.. :) cant post it here cause the file is too big..

how super are you???

I am helping out.. :)

hahaha... you know how super I am? :P

2 volunteers on stage during magic..

He is not only a magician.. but really funny.. :)

october 7... FANTASTIC FALL FESTIVAL.. wohoo.. it was like a carnival.. I was incharging the prizes.. did not get to play much.. :( too concentrate on work.. :P haha.. there is games and foods.. and photo booth.. :) ppl who play get tickets and they get to exchange with prizes.. ;) I did not take any pictures as most of the pictures are with my friends.. Did not manage to get from him so will post it up later.. ;)

the fall festival

this was funny.. :P

fred incharging one of the games...

anyone wanna exchange for spikes??? :P

october 8th.. no events.. but I had actuarial evening to attend.. meeting up and talking to company.. :) I need to thanks to my room mate AMY which given me tips how to talk to the company.. :) I got an interview from the company TRAVELERS.. :) after that I was busy with YELL LIKE HELL practise and i did not go for the famous lecture by the famous speaker MAYA ANGELOU... :(

october 9.. AN EXTREMELY BUSY DAY FOR ME!!! oh yea.. in the morning.. I went for the company interview.. is my very 1st time for job interview.. pretty nervous.. I really really need to thank Amy for giving me mock interviews at night.. I am not that nervous anymore.. :) after that.. I had to go for actuarial bbq in the afternoon.. playing kickball with all the actuarial company and meet new friends.. :) when i come back.. i was exhausted.. :( i slept till I almost forgot that I need to be at Olmsted before 5.30 because Eric Hutchinson is coming and I have to be the security for one hour.. :P hahaha... do you know who is Eric Hutchinson? go google or youtube if you dunno.. :P SO SORRY and I ran there at about 5.40.. :P before the concert it was Yell like Hell competition.. YOU KNOW WHAT!!! MASA WON 1st!!! haha.. I am sure you guys saw the video on facebook.. so I don wanna post here any more.. :P and we are on the newspaper.. :P just a few pict of Eric Hutchinson.. :) I got his signature.. :)

Drake cheerleaders..

Yell like Hell..

We Won!! :)

haha.. We are on the newspaper.. :P

SAB co-chair.. Witney(bands), Greg(bands), Nicole(homecoming), Amy(homecoming)

Sue Ann, Amy, and me

homecoming king and queen..

the stage was really nice... Eric Hutchinson singing

a closer view...

the closest view.. :P

Homecoming ended.. and I cant believe it snows at october 10... walaoye.. i know winter is coming.. yee... stop here.. dunno what to write d.. :P oh yea.. the night before homecoming.. the chinese society had a mooncake party.. :) I get to eat some mooncake.. and there is a piano dueling again.. but than I watch it before during spring so I just went for the mooncake party.. :)

Games during mooncake festival

dueling piano.. they are awesome!!

MY CURRENT LIFE!!!

2009-09-28T12:10:00.000-07:00

yohoo.. sudah lama tak update.. :P wahahha.. so now i am going to update la.. since the "schedule" i had planned had change.. so i will take this time to post the blog.. i am kinda lazy to post in diff blog so i post everything to one blog ok... :P busy preparing and joining diff kind of activities... :) preparing for homecoming which is next week.. super busy.. but not as busy as my super housemate AMY.. :P and also joining YELL LIKE HELL.. :) will be on next post... hehe...

ok.. i think about one month ago.. :P i went to a picnic with my hose parents.. :) erm.. the picnic is not like Malaysia which everyone thinks that we are going to the beach or park and than prepare food.. :P nope nope.. is actually a family gathering with my host parents kids school.. they have magic show for all the kids and something like auction where u bid the price.. the nintendo was only 100dollars i guess.. super cheap wei.. :P but i never buy.. i post some pic...

gathering at the hall

the kids are watching magic show

Sam volunteer to go on stage.. :)

hmm.. few weeks ago i rush for Delta Sigma Pie, a business organization.. but couldn't get in.. :( but it was fun during the rushing week.. went for picnic, roller skating..... hahaha.. I WILL GET TO SKATE SOON!!! :P

the next thing is.. host parents gathering.. is super fun talking to different families and get to know more bout the American Culture.. :) is just a gathering to eat... :)

justin.. :) holding the american football..

Sam and me

:P took this pic when walking to the lake..

1st time going to the lake in Iowa..

wahahahaha... guess what... i am learning how to COOK!!! :P don laugh at me la.. 1st time learning.. must give me a clap.. :P

the ABC soup.. i know the colour is kinda wierd.. but trust me I am so PROUD!!! :P

since i boiled too much.. so i used it as my lunch the next day..

potluck with friends..

lemon chicken i cooked.. hmm.. not bad la.. but not that nice compare to my mom's.. :p

Asam Fish cooked by Amy

too lazy to think.. so just cook indo mee.. put some mushroom into it.. :)

pressure~~

2009-09-04T22:07:00.001-07:00

hmm... lots of exam is coming now.. i dunno y i keep feeling down cause i am afraid i cant do well in my professional paper.. :( well.. hope i can..

1st day of work isn't that bad... the manager was good and all the workers threat me really good... :) although i need to wipe all the table.. :P don laugh at me.. but kinda silly la.. find wrong money for customer.. :S

i know high expectation make me pressure and pressure.. i am joining volunteer job soon.. wanna help ppl and learn more things... :) hope that i won't be pressure.. :)

NEW SEMESTER BEGIN!!!

2009-09-01T19:07:00.000-07:00

WAO!!!!!!!! I haven been writing blog... all i post when i was in malaysia was just cheerleading.. :P well.. kinda lazy to post things now... will post some stuff when i think is fun in the states... :) been really sad feel like giving up when i did badly in my actuarial pro. papers... but anyway.. DON GIVE UP... is what all ppl advice me.. well i believe one day i could do it.. :) maybe not the top but at least i try my best...

well.. really busy this few days... running here and there to pay fees, fill forms, update information, deposits money, changing classes, finding professors.. :P many many more... and finally, considering my 1st job in my life.. :P is working as a cashier in a cafeteria in my uni.. wahahaha... nvm la.. wanna get the SSN 1st... :)

well... went to a candle party which only girls and women attend.. :) is actually pretty new for me because it doesn't look like a party to me.. it looks more like promoting if is in malaysia.. where we look at the candles and if we like it than we buy it.. i did not buy anything because for me i don't like to fill my room up with many things and when the time i move out will be crazy.. :P hehehe... i am thinking i might be a guy in the past.. :P wahaha..

here are some pic..

promoting the candles

special hand made vase.. each has diff shadows.. :)

halloween and christmas is coming!!

MERDEKA!!! MERDEKA!!! MERDEKA!!! haha... 1st time i celebrate merdeka in US... all the malaysian in my uni celebrate it together.. well nothing much to write... here are some pic... we just celebrate it during the welcome back party... :)

CHEER!!

2009-07-27T00:59:00.001-07:00

seriously i miss cheer so much.. i am not in cheerleading for about 3 years d... :( is really a good memory during my high school.. started competing in cheer2004.. got no.9 in 2006 when i was in form 5... really happy because we had improve a lot every year.. CALYX!!! my team... maybe for chs.. not many ppl supported because we were not as good as our band which won champion every year.. hard to get permision for practise and most of the competition time we had our exams... :( and i bet nobody will scared of calyx because we were not known as a strong team for ppl... but hey!! they won 3rd this year... and even won champion in a stunt division competition in all girls cathegory and even won 2nd in the international cathegory comparing with other country!!! isn't it amazing!!!?? so chs.. will u still call us bitchy and keep insulting all the cheerleaders as girlish?? oh pls... we do so many strengh work like the guys... and we don only CHEER.. we dance and do gymnas too!! here are some videos of calyx...

this is cheer2006.. can you find me?? =p

2006 performing in 1utama for merdeka day

calyx all boys!! won best new comer in 2007..

cheer 2008

charm cheerleading championship!! won 1st in all girls stunt division!! 2nd in international stunt division!!

i don have other videos... calyx perform in other events like sports day and campfire.. :) really miss those days.. :(

CALYX WON 3 AWARDS!!!

2009-07-05T07:51:00.000-07:00

this is the video from the star...

wohoooooooooooo!!!!!!!!!!!!!! calyx girls were awesome!!! we are so proud of you girls.... 3 awards!!! best dress, 1st runner up for best make up, and overall 2ND RUNNER UP for CHEER2009!!! YEAH!!!!!!!!! with 0.6 marks to 1st runner up.. :S but than you girls are so great... GIRLS POWER!!!

so CHS!!! will u now support cheerleading??? like how the way u support the band...??? and school.. will u still say we cheerleaders are always FLIRTING around??? LISTEN... we can do stunts, gymnastics, strength work and lots of things YOU ALL cant do it... we have to work out same as the guys... so what is cheerleading in CHS mind??? SLUT?? I DON THINK SO!!! will you still laugh at us when we practise?? and give all the stupid nonsense without suporting... DON BE SO "YIN SAT"... bringing back 3 awards!!! WHAT CAN YOU SAY?? making us performing in uniform before.. =.= without giving an eye on us and what are we practising... without even care bout us... only the BAND!!! hmph...

3 AWARDS!!! with the team calyx... :) go PINK BLACK WHITE!!!

all the senior supporting our beloved CALYX.. :)

C-A-L-Y-X LETS GO CALYX!!!!!!!!!!

this is the video on saturday...

in case u couldn't see everything.. this is a video from someone... sunday performance... :)

CHAMPION -- BLITZERZ!!

1st runner up... SHIRTLIFF!!!

the winners

DAMN IT!!! it makes me thought of cheer again... i really miss those cheer days... :) is so tired after practise... but is so fun... we had improve a lot compare to the 1st time... :) really miss those days... now my badge members are all graduate from high school except the flyer AMELIA.. :) she is the one who keep flying up and down... :) miss you girls.. got any outing pls call me... especially when u girls celebrate... :)

things i have done in this 4 months

2009-05-12T20:28:00.000-07:00

YUHOO!!! i just finish my finals... YEAH!!! and i am FLYING back tomorrow.. just finish packing here and there... plan not to sleep now.. haha... cause i am so EXCITED!!! haha... after the relay i thought of posting it.. but really busy for all the exams... uni in US really very diff from malaysia... which everything have to done by MYSELF!!! i think i become more hardworking in US.. =p everyday also STUDY... wahaha... believe??? but sure rest for some day la... haha... since i stop on the relay.. i wanna post something i done after relay... tmr i will post some more pic... because i will walk around and take pic.. is spring now.. :)

RELAY CARNIVAL

COTTON CANDY!!!

me, amy and fred with SNOWCON

FIGHT!! with my future roomie AMY!!

RACE

5 ON 5 RACE!!! WE RACE!!! haha...

we won!!! =p

picture took in the carnival.. its FREE!!!

after that.. i don think i have pic d.. =p relay got many more events.. like night and stuff.. but nothing much so never take any pic... and nothing much cause EXAMS!!! Zzzzz... I GET OVER IT!! YEAH!! SURVIVE!!! wahaha... =p so now i show some winter and spring pic.. :)

WINTER PIC

the library.. sorry i am not a good photographer..

drake building.. OLD MAIN

SPRING PIC

the library

the place i stay...

GREEN MOUNTAIN... i drank almost 100 dollars for this sem..

smoothie...

is time to fly back..

DRAKE 100 RELAY!! AWESOME PIANO!!!

2009-04-21T11:06:00.000-07:00

woohooo... so many events right now... went to watch a piano duet yesterday night which is 20th april night.. is a comedy.. the piano was really AWESOME!! i really had quite a few months never play piano d... hand also stift d.. haha.. how i wish i could play HALF as good as them.. =p haha... aiyo... but i lazy to practise la.. is all my prob.. =p how they both can play immediately on the stage.. that is so amazing.. u need the chemistry and long practises.. and all the songs are request by audience.. so means they know songs from all around the world i guess... WOW!!!

woo.. i really miss piano, dancing and singing the most la.. hmm.. now i post a few videos for all of u... :) but my camera battery die off at the end.. so behind got a few cool songs never record.. sorry some videos i took in the middle.. cause i keep off and on to safe my battery.. =p haha...

CARTOON songs..

look at the AWESOME DUET start from 43rd seconds...

This is a video to see women are smarter all men are smarter.. =p whenever he sings a word start with "b" they must switch... just have a look.. :)

this was AWESOME!!!

DRAKE 100 RELAY PARADE and STREET PAINTING

2009-04-19T13:26:00.000-07:00

wow!! Drake 100 relay.. this week will have lots of events coming!! WUHOO!!! 1st of all street painting suppos to be on april 18 but they shift to 17 because due to the weather report it will rain on april 18.. instead of street painting it became face painting.. =p haha.. everyone was playing around with the paint... =p i never go because after street painting is ISA formal night.. as everyone know i bath quite long and i don wan paint kena my hair.. =p a bit waisted... must go next year d... but however i did went out and "LOOK" and once i went out, thanks to fred he painted my leg... ish.. ok let me show u some pic..

it's just outside my dorm..

look at the crowd!!

this is ashwin and blue man FRED

everyone was ligning up to WASH =p

FRED's "art"

the street after painting

THESE are a few i think it was really nice!!

this is from kappa alpha sigma?? haha.. i dunno la.. =p

this is from Malaysian student!!

this is from CHEERLEADING!!!

this is drake actuarial science society

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on april 19.. is drake 100th relay parade... i recorded down the parade.. :) but my camera skill not that good.. hope everyone don blame... throwing candy here and there.. show all of u how much candy me, heng li, amy, fred and dhaya got... hehehe...

i guess is everyone's dream car... sooo many behind the parade!!! wuhoo..

these are the candies we got!!!

International Formal Night

2009-04-19T10:37:00.000-07:00

on the 17th of april night.. there is a formal night for students in drake all around the world.. =p international formal.. hmm... actually nothing much to write.. just went there with limo.. =p haha... but than i sat the not so nice wan... :S inside not bad la... but than nothing much.. just anounce the comittee for the new ISA... :) here are some photo...
din really took much photo.. same thing... lazy to taip la.. haha.. =p go facebook see la =p

DRAKE MASA NIGHT 2009!!

2009-04-15T20:13:00.000-07:00

i guess.. i never post my uni prog for everyone to see right.. =p hahaha... ok here is a big event in my uni for MALAYSIAN... MASA NIGHT means... Malaysian Association... (something something..) =p paiseh... haha.. so is our night.. means we as malaysian going to bring our culture to the americans.. :) i hope everyone enjoyed that night.. is called ROJAK night... hehe.. as u all know malaysia are ROJAK... speak ROJAK.. eat ROJAK.. mixing here and there.. wahaha... ok.. i lazy to post all the pic.. because it takes me time to rearrange everything.. so i am going to post some MAJOR things only.. hehehe...

me and gary singing on the stage.. :) ian playing for us..

both singer of the night.. =p

hannah.. the main actress for masa night.. :) a nice and gorgeous girl i know in DRAKE.. :)

jeremy... my host family kids... called him the "sword man" =p.. performing the wushu.. sword..

me and the malay dancers.. :)

the malay dance.. i don have the guys part.. sorry..

ruey from EMO gang.. came and perform LION DANCE!!!

andrew.. met in chicago.. :) the president for ISU lion dance

i cant find any lion dance pic on stage sorry.. they are practising

amy.. my future room mate.. :) the MC of the night..

siva.. another MC..

the indian dancers..

the girls on stage..

my host family..

becky... the president of the event..

the "sexy" IBAN ppl.. =p

Des Moines Historical Museum

2009-04-15T19:43:00.000-07:00

hmm.. is been like half a month late.. =p hahaha... ok.. now i will post something online... march 28th i went to historical building in des moines... i just finish lots of mid term and presentation... sorry for my blog readers who always read my blog.. now i will post some of the pic on that day... :) oh yea.. btw.. i went with my host family... :) with other family too.. :) i lazy to type la.. i will just post.. :) oh yea.. after that we went to the noodle zoo to eat.. is not zoo la.. =p but i ordered a fruit salad.. taste great!!! :)

these are some pic i took.. i am lazy to post everything here.. so go facebook see ok.. =p

make my blog alive

2009-03-31T21:11:00.000-07:00

i really kinda lazy to write blog la.. nowadays.. so many test and hw.. some more my professional paper coming.. i wanna pass le... still got arond 5 weeks than i will be back.. 5 to 6 weeks la..

march.. i forgot one thing important.. i forgot to write out a blog for my birthday.. =p to say the truth.. the older i am the more not excited birthday is!! but my birthday falls on spring break.. thanks to EMO gang and drake friends... gave me a volcano surprise.. :) thanks to hannah.. :) thanks to some1 special gave me a big surprise... thanks to my parents.. =p gave me money shopping in chicago.. hahaha... thanks to ppl who wish me.. :)

went to the historical museum with my host family.. kinda lazy to write my blog d.. because most of the ppl in US are playing facebook.. everyone leaving message on facebook.. so most of the time i am using facebook.. so whatever pic you wanna see.. just go there and see la.. =p hahaha!!!

continue study la.. busy week coming.. haihz... good luck to me..

my life started to change.. yes.. it has start to change..

today.. i heard that my ah kor wei kuan got into top 20 for ASTRO!!! I am so happy for him.. i hope he can enter final.. :) JIA YOU!!! miss all the performance time. nvm.. at least now i can perform in MASA night, which is my university Malaysia night!!.. hehe.. singing for other countries... feeling kinda diff.. good luck to me again.. =p

CHICAGO TRIP

2009-03-19T22:33:00.000-07:00

full used of my spring break... really enjoy in CHICAGO!!! travel with drake gang and HELP EMO GANG!! haha.. too many pic to upload so i will not upload too many pic.. i will just upload some pic... if u wanna see my pic!! GO TO FACEBOOK!!! hahaha...

march 14.. on the way to chicago... so basically nothing much.. reach chicago around 8 at night... so we check in and went to rainforest for our dinner... thanks everyone for the surprise.. the volcano ice-cream cake... :)

group shot.. inside rainforest!!

volcano cake!! thanks everyone!!

rainforest... really nice inside!!

isn't it nice??

march 15.. my birthday!!! haha... but we went to museum.. the musuem was dam chun!! so we went to the historical musuem and the aquarium museum.. before that we went to china town!!! for DIM SUM!!! mis dim sum wei... but cannot compare of course malaysia dim sum nicer!!! =p

CHINA TOWN!!

xiu mai!!

xiu long bao!!

in front of the museum.. nice view!! with EMO GANG!!

SOME PIC OF HISTORICAL MUSEUM!!!

AQUARIUM MUSEUM!!

NAVY PIER!!

i din mention navy pier.. cause we thought of going there to enjoy.. is like a fun fair.. but it is close.. :(

march 16... we went to SHOP!! SHOP SHOP SHOP!!! hehe... the outlet mall.. branded stuff like guess, coach, calvin klein.... SUPER CHEAP!! eventhough u convert it back to RM!!! hehe.. shit!! i am looking at branded stuff.. =p oh btw.. ruey yih and his friends rent a car... so we shop till a bit later than we reach hotel dam late d.. so went to eat MacD.. macd there was super big wei.. got lift, escolater.. =p

cynthia, chloe and me.. do u believe these are all ours?? =p

MacD!!!

inside macd..

march 17.. we went to the ZOO!! the weather was nice today.. but to bad.. no show in the zoo.. :( so we just walk around.. basically is just animals.. =p so nothing much... after that i went to macys with jason.. cause don feel like going back to the hotel.. FULL USE of the time in trip.. we went to millenium park also.. we felt so nice.. =p oh yea.. we went to sears tower at night.. is part of the museum trip... we saw the sunset.. and the view of chicago!!

some pic inside the zoo..

posing with the famous BEAN!! will show u next.. is really a bean!!

SOME PIC FROM SEARS TOWER!!!

the sun is totally set!! :)

EMO GANG!!

march 18.. last day to walk around.. went to millenium park again.. after that we went to planetarium.. another part of the museum.. but no time to go to the science museum.. after that we went to magnificent mile.. the place where rich ppl go.. =p nike, forever 21, guess, coach, burberry, aldo... but expensive... just look around and never buy anything... oh yea.. we went to pizzeria UNO!!! the pizza was SUPER NICE!!! one slice is already full for me..!!! wahaha... NICE NICE!! YUMMY!!!

PIC OF MILLENIUM PARK!!

there u see!!! is a BEAN right???

SOME PIC OF PLANETARIUM MUSEUM!!

ONE PIC OF PIZZERIA PIZZA!!! YUMMY!!!

march 19.. time to go back d.. at night went to my host family house to sleep for 3 days.. cause jewett only will open on 22nd...

march 20.. went out with my host family.. they bring me to crispy cream, garage sale, des moines art museum... and at night we went to eat japanese food... :) i dunno what is it call here... but in malaysia is tepenyaki... heehee..

lydia and sam

the SIFU frying!!

i cant wait to eat!!

SAM!!

march 21.. stay at my host family house cause they got class.. :) need to thanks them for letting me stay for 3 nights.. :)

march 22.. came back to JEWETT!! need to prepare for class.. :(

host family!!

2009-03-08T10:52:00.000-07:00

in the previous post i mention bout my US host family... :) so now i am going to post some pic and write something bout it..

yesterday went to their house for dinner... :) they are really nice family and their kids were so fun and cute... :) was having fun with them... i will post some pic now.. :)

the kids.. devan and sam on top of me.. justin and lydia beside me.. :)

the boys.. cute right??

my host parents.. emily and jeff..

i am lifting samuel.. :)

work smart but not hard!! ENJOYING!! :)

2009-03-03T09:32:00.001-08:00

things do not come when we expect them... they always come when we least expect.. so be smart but not hard.. i am so tired and kinda disappointed in my results... but whatever over i only know i must do better next time...

and finally i got my US host family... they are emily and jeff with 4 kids... lydia, devan, sam and justin.. :) i really enjoyed playing with the kids... they are so smart and fun.. :) i did not have much pic i will get it and post it later... :)

don feel like writing so many emo stuff here... write some things happening here.. :) one month ago i went salsa night and i din post up my pic.. =p now write a bit la.. :) nothing much actually.. enjoy that night on feb 7.. :)

going to salsa night.. :)

the dance floor..

zi yu...

《離婚協議書》

2009-02-27T11:24:00.000-08:00

i receive a forward mail... feel like it's really touching.. so post it here for everyone.. :) especially girls.. hehehe.. :)

嫁給這個男人五年了，我不知道我是否還愛他。
記得剛新婚的時候，早晨時必定會在他懷抱中醒來，
我總是紅著臉不敢說一聲早，怕嘴裡的口氣弄皺了他的眉；
漱口杯與牙刷堅持要和他用同款不同色，擺在一起看才有夫妻的感覺；
我會幫他打點上班的衣物，什麼襯衫配什麼領帶，經過我的審美才准他穿上身。

起了床到餐桌上，為了他的健康，我每天變換不同花樣的早餐，
晴朗的天可能是培根蛋加上烤土司；
有些下雨的話，或許來點小米粥搭醬瓜鹹蛋；
要是陰天，不如就吃些外頭的燒餅油條和豆漿……
招式用到我變不出新把戲，可是我樂此不疲。
除了當一個賢慧的妻子，我亦毫不掩飾對他的熱情，
「我愛你」是每天恭送他出門上班一定說的話，
然後附加一個親密的吻，
即使他大多時候只是淺淺一笑，也足夠我高興個老半天。

但是，五年過去了。
我相信還不到癢的時候，
可是，到底是什麼改變了我和他的互動？
早晨起床，他的位置往往已空蕩，
只能由皺褶的床單證實他確實存在過，
即使他偶爾睡過了頭或者小賴一下床，
也絕對是急急忙忙由床上跳起來，匆忙的梳洗著衣。

我已經快忘了被他擁抱迎接朝陽的感覺。
盥洗室裡的漱口杯，在幾年前被打破一只後，
再也找不到一模一樣的，而另一只因為掉到馬桶裡，所以也換了新的；
五年內，牙刷已換了不知幾支，甚至有時我們睡迷糊了，
還會用上同一支，什麼口氣的問題都不需要掩飾了。
是否一樣顏色，一樣款式，他說這些根本不重要。

因此，洗手台上Hello Kitty和小叮噹圖樣的兩只漱口杯左右對峙，
小叮噹的杯裡插著一支綠色牙刷，是我的；
Hello Kitty則是空的，因為他前一陣子已改用電動牙刷，擺在架子上。
分屬兩個不同故事的漱口杯，以及位於兩個不同位置的牙刷，
彷彿在嘲諷我們的夫妻關係，漸行漸遠。因為他出門的時間早，
打點他的衣著已經不再是我的事，他自己會搞定。
早餐已經很久沒有一起吃了，
我同樣不必費盡心思去想菜單、查食譜，反正沒人賞光。
更不用說「我愛你」這句話，
還有熱情的早安吻，他無福消受，而且現在說起來也有些矯情了。
仔細想想，五年來他沒有說過一次「我愛你」，一次也沒有。
我和他相聚的時間，嚴格上來說是從晚上七點開始，也就是他下班回來之後。
如果他加班的話，那時間可能要延到十點、十一點。

剛結婚的時候，我為了他去學烹飪，
「要抓住男人的心，先抓住他的胃」，我深信這個鐵律。
所以，一些餐館名菜常出現在我們餐桌上，
宮保雞丁、五更腸旺、蔥油雞、東坡肉……。
見他吃得高興，我也開懷，雖然不全是我愛吃的，但是，他愛吃就好。
飯後，我們會依偎在沙發上看電視，
我陪他看新聞，聽他評論國政、批判社情；
他陪我看八點檔，聽我調侃劇情、大哭大笑。
所以我知道行政院長、立法院長是什麼人，
他也知道當紅的李世民是誰演的。

我沒有料到的是，五年的時間可以改變這一切。
烹飪班我可以說是半途而廢，
不知道從哪天起，他開始干涉我做菜的方法，
宮保雞丁他不喜歡太多辣椒，五更腸旺他開始抵制，
蔥油雞叫我別淋油，連滷東坡肉要放多少醬油，他都有話說。
我做的菜漸漸變得簡單，烹飪班也不想去了，
有時候一盤炒青菜、貢丸湯和皮蛋豆腐就打發掉他，他反而沒什麼意見。
我想，我抓不住他的胃。

隨著他加班次數的增加，我們甚少在一起看電視了，
除了現任總統是陳水扁，我對於國家大事可說一無所知；
而他，問都不用問，台灣霹靂火的男主角是誰他絕對不可能知道。
夫妻之間開始言不及義，他對我說的話，大多都是「不用等我」、「早點睡」，
我跟他說的話，也幾乎是「你回來了」、「菜在電鍋熱著」。

我們沒有相同的話題，沒有相同的興趣，
除了「夫妻」名義上的聯繫，
我們的交流空泛的可憐，比普通朋友還不如。
多可笑的夫妻關係，不是嗎？

婚前，我們曾描繪著未來的願景，
他說要生兩個孩子，先男後女，哥哥可以保護妹妹；
我卻認為應該先享受一段兩人生活，生孩子的時情倒不急於一時，
只是我不想壞了他的興致，並沒有說出口。

婚後一陣子，他很積極的和我「創造宇宙繼起之生命」，
他想要孩子，從他不戴保險套的行為可以看得出來，
可是我還不想要，又怕他不高興，於是我背著他吃避孕藥。

猶記那時，他還興沖沖的帶我到醫院探視一名女性朋友，
她剛生完一個四千兩百公克的巨嬰，神色萎糜的躺在病床上。
我忘不了他隔著一塊玻璃看新生娃娃時，眼中綻放的神采，
可是我更忘不了，那位女性朋友用著虛弱的語氣告訴我，
她整整痛了一天一夜，才求醫生由自然產改為剖腹產。
我更不敢生小孩了。

五年後的今天，他似乎已經放棄生小孩這回事，
畢竟只有他一頭熱是沒用的。
可是，待在他上班之後空洞的房子裡，我突然覺得生個孩子也不錯，
至少屋子裡會熱鬧點，我的寂寞，也會少一點。
他早就在數年前就開始用保險套了，我不清楚是什麼讓他改變心意，
不過這也鬆了我一口氣，我對避孕藥似乎過敏，
不論換什麼牌子最後都落得一個水腫的下場。
我猜他六百多度的近視加閃光，應該看不出我水腫前和水腫後有什不一樣，
重點是，他的保險套解決了我一個大麻煩，同時又帶來另一個新煩惱。

我現在想要一個孩子了，他卻似乎不想，我不知怎麼跟他開口。
更別提他頻繁的加班，晚上常累得倒頭就睡，
如果我再開這個口，似乎變相增加他的壓力。
兩個人之間，已經夠低潮了，不需要再增加一個會引起衝突的話題。

在我們戀愛的時候，他很喜歡帶我到淡水，
坐在河堤旁看落日，沿著碼頭走一遭，
可以吃到不同口味的各式小吃。
淡水的海產頗富盛名，他似乎是隻識途老馬，總知道哪家是最道地的。
有時候，他帶著我坐渡輪到對岸的八里，
那裡熱鬧的只有一條路，賣的全是孔雀蛤，
兩個人可以吃掉一大盤，還覺得意猶未盡。
他也會和我騎雙人腳踏車沿著淡水老街騎到淡海，
再由淡海騎回來，沿路的風景不算十分迷人，
但有種質樸的味道，兼之海風鹹鹹的打在臉上，我很享受這種氣氛。
當然，坐在腳踏車後座的我三天打漁兩天曬網，
心情好的時候才踩兩下，他明知我偷懶，還是賣力的踩。

我很懷念，真的，即使過了五年，那段回憶仍然歷歷在目。
婚後到淡水的次數，除了新婚那一陣子，幾乎屈指可數，
近兩、三年更是一次都沒去過。
每到假日，他不到中午不會起床，
我見他這麼疲倦，當然也不會煩他帶我到處走，
假日照理說，我和他應該可以有些交集，可是他累，我只能自己找事做，
和在上班工作的朋友出門逛逛街，聊聊是非，也順便埋怨一下他。
至於在家睡覺的他，午、晚飯，自己解決吧！

他不知道，在前幾個月，
我耐不住無聊，自個兒坐捷運到了淡水。
果然，太久沒有去了，那裡已經變成一個我完全不認識的地方。
河堤旁的小吃攤不見了，全部集中在捷運站附近，
過去我和他看夕陽的地方整修成一條長堤，僅供散步。
路面變得乾淨整潔固然是好，但是收藏著我和他美好記憶的地方，消失了。

沒有他的帶路，我找不到道地的海產店，找不到好吃的小吃，
自己一個人也騎不了雙人單車，
但我驚訝的發現，淡水多了一個漁人碼頭，可以坐公車過去。
漁人碼頭，他的腳步沒有踏上過，我先了他一步，
這，是沒有他，只有我的經驗。
到了漁人碼頭邊，風景美復美矣，卻有種人工雕砌的做作。
我以為花了幾百元搭乘藍色公路可以到對岸八里，就像渡輪一般，
但那失了古風的遊艇卻繞了一大圈後又開回原點。
除了顛簸的船身搖得我頭暈目眩，我記不起來什麼美麗的風景，
連孔雀蛤也沒撈到一粒。

淡水變了，我和他的回憶，也變了。
某個早上，我特地比他早起，煮了頓睽違已久的豐盛早餐給他。
然後，沒有第三者，沒有爭吵。
我遞出了離婚協議書。

那是我第一次看到他那麼震驚的表情，
如果那天是愚人節，我想我成功了。
可是，我不會開那般惡劣的玩笑，他知道我是認真的。

他沒有像一般男人一樣，暴跳如雷，開始數落女方的罪狀；
也沒有哭哭啼啼，跪下哀求我留下，
他只是極力冷靜自己的心緒，默不吭聲的接下協議書，
開門，上班，一如往常。他或許也察覺我們的夫妻關係到了一個瓶頸，
也打算仔細考慮離婚的可行性，
他近幾年的疏離，我沒有流下一滴眼淚，
可是他這天的冷漠，幾乎傾盡我五年的淚水。

我有些後悔，這後悔逐漸蔓延，
以心臟為一個起點，通傳至我的頭頂及腳趾。
但後悔又如何？
不快刀斬亂麻，也只是拖著一個平淡如水的日子，兩個人乾耗。

我不知道自己對他的愛剩多少，更不清楚他對我的愛剩多少。
嫁給他之前，我就知道他沈默寡言；
嫁給他之後，自以為能改變他的我，並沒有改變多少。
我的愛，還不足以改變他，
他的愛，亦不足以為我改變，這大概是關鍵所在。

柴米油鹽醬醋茶會摧毀愛情的甜蜜，我嚐到了，
但這卻是用五年換來的教訓。
趁現在，沒有孩子，沒有牽絆，
我也不貪圖他什麼，該是離婚最好的時機吧？
抖著手在離婚協議書上簽下名的我，
到之後他出去幾個小時了，我仍然在發抖。

這是一種未知的惶恐，我，等他給我一個結果。
他冷淡了我五年後，又凌遲了我七天。
從離婚協議書交到他手上之後，整整一個星期，
他不與我說一句話，也睡了七天的沙發，每天仍然照常上下班，
除了更加冷淡，我感覺不到他的喜怒哀樂。
那張協議書，就算扔到垃圾筒裡，還會有觸動垃圾袋的聲音，
可是他，一點聲音也沒有，我懷疑他根本不當一回事，
一段時間不理會我，只是在看我會不會自己忘了離婚這回事。

我受不了了，他到底要怎麼做？
連離婚，也要離得這麼漠然嗎？
然而，七天之後的他，結結實實嚇了我一跳。
一早，我聽到他在客廳起床的聲音，隔著門板聽不真切，
我卻一直等不到他出去上班的關門聲。
一陣乒乒乓乓的金屬撞擊，取代了他一向安安靜靜的作息，
我終於按捺不住起身察看，卻在開門後，聞到了一陣食物的香氣。
「起床了？吃點蛋捲。」他笑著，如新婚時我吻他之後那般淺笑。
我心裡狠狠跳了一下，原以為古井不波的情緒，因他久違的體貼而起了絲絲漣漪。
他還是那麼輕易的，可以撩動我的心。

我不清楚他怎麼可以混到九點、十點還不去上班，
他接收到我的疑惑，也只是淡然一笑，
身上簡單的服裝一點兒上班的氣息都沒有，可能他，也有工作疲乏吧？
也可能……他要宣判了，關於那張離婚協議書。
看他神色自若的樣子，我默默吃著早餐，幻想著等一下他會說的話。
他會不會乾脆的就離婚了？還是，在我面前撕了協議書？
不可否認的，我的心，傾向後者。

「我升上經理了。」他的第一句話，出乎我意料，
下一句話，卻馬上進入重點，轟得我措手不及，
「工作上的事告一段落，現在要好好處理家裡的事。」
工作是排在家庭之前嗎？我苦笑。
「工作安頓好，我才能給妳安定的家。」他像在解釋我的疑惑，
「所以，告訴我為什麼要離婚？」他終於問了，臉色變得肅穆。
他從來沒有用過這種質疑的口氣與我說話，
望著他難得的厲色，我竟一句話也說不出來。
「妳覺得我冷淡妳了嗎？」轉眼，他的態度忽而又變得自嘲，弄得我丈二金剛，
「我就知道妳一個人在家老是胡思亂想……」
我和他長談了一整天，數個小時的談話，有五分之四的時間我是在哭的，
因為我覺得自己犯了一個滔天大錯。
可是，有些事，沒有那張離婚協議書，我永遠不會知道。

他說，五年來，他確實每天都是抱著我醒來，
只是後來他工作忙，起床時間變早，而我仍沈睡著，不知道罷了，
有時他還會親親我的臉，看著我貪懶的睡顏，他不忍心叫醒我。
而擺在盥洗室的漱口杯，他根本搞不清楚小叮噹是他的抑或Hello Kitty才是他的，
他以為粉紅色是女孩子的頻色，所以他一直用著小叮噹的嗽口杯。
原來，我們一直在無形間，做著親密的唇齒交流，
可憐了Hello Kitty，擺在那兒沒人用，成了個裝飾品。

早餐，他吃的都是7-11，他承認很想念我做的早餐，
可是他不好意思央我每天做給他，
他知道我會擠盡腦汁變花樣，他捨不得看我太累。
「我娶妳，是希望妳享福，不是要妳來當女傭的。」從他這句話開始，我便止不住眼淚。
提到他的衣著，他更是笑我的傻，
他看得出來我會為他添新衣服，按顏色花樣在櫃裡整整齊齊的分類擺放，
而新婚時期我常幫他搭配，久了他也知道我的喜好，
什麼領帶配什麼衣服，他是為我而穿。
至於熱情的早安吻，每天他早在我熟睡間給我了，
我卻兀自鑽牛角尖，認為他不需要我的吻。

「你為什麼從不說你愛我呢？」我噙著淚水問他。
「我以為妳知道，否則我們為什麼結婚？」他理所當然回答。
是啊，我知道，我一直都知道，不然我不會嫁給他的，
可是，既然知道，我又何必強求他說出來？

女人都是需要一些愛語滋潤的，我想這就是理由，
看著我控訴的眼光，我想他也知道理由了。
「妳做的大菜，很好吃，可是那些菜費工夫，也不全是妳喜歡的，
所以我寧可妳做些簡單的菜，最好是妳也喜歡吃。」
他一句一句的解釋，又讓我掉了一缸淚水，
「妳不喜歡吃辣，因此我要妳少放辣椒；
妳不吃內臟，那我也不吃；妳怕胖，所以料理時我希望油加少一點；
醬油鹽份高，吃多腎臟負擔大，為了妳我健康著想，調味即可，不必加太多。」
只要是我煮的，他都喜歡，想想他沒有一次不是吃光的，
到底為什麼我會覺得抓不住他的胃？所以，我也抓住了他的心嗎？

另一件令我驚訝的事，
他真的知道台灣霹靂火的男主角是誰，即使猜得不完全正確。
「是劉文聰嗎？還是那個李正賢？
晚上在公司加班，同事都會開電視來看，所以我多少也知道一點。」
他撫去我臉上淚痕，笑問：「妳也在看嗎？」
「嗯。」我又想哭了，我真是小覷了那個節目的收視率。
「當上經理之後會比較少加班，那我們就一起看。」
他說得輕鬆，我卻鼻頭一陣酸楚。

我在意的，其實不是看什麼節目，管他行政院長、立法院長是誰，
沒有他在身邊，看什麼都索然無味。
我發現，只要願意，兩個人什麼事都可以談，
連我跟他解釋台灣霹靂火的劇情，一路聊到整容話題，他也聽得津津有味。

是我，是我封閉了自己，
以為他不願意聽我說話、不願意對我說話。
他心疼我一個人在家裡，聊公司裡的事怕悶壞我，
又見我一副不想搭理他的樣子，他每天只能摸摸一鼻子的灰。
無論他跟我說什麼，我都是愛聽的，
可是我現在才讓他知道，
夫妻兩浪費了幾年的時間在這種誤解之間打轉，他活該，我也活該。

聊到生孩子的事，他先是一陣默然。
「我想生一個孩子。」這時候，我有勇氣說出口了。
「我以為妳不想，剛結婚那一陣子，妳不是一直吃避孕藥？」
難得聽到他有些怪罪的語氣。
進一步了解之後，我才發現，
他一直知道我在吃藥──或許是我哪次把藥隨便擱在化粧台上，被他看到了，
他徹底了解我不想要孩子。
而他也知道，我吃完藥隔天會有水腫的現象，
身子骨纖細的我，一雙腳腫得跟象腿一樣，
也只有我這種人的鴕鳥心態才會認為他不會發現。
後來我養成習慣將藥好好放在抽屜中，
他以為我不再吃，怕身子水腫難受，所以他戴起保險套，
說來說去，還是為了我。

「妳又水腫了嗎？一直哭個不停，是想把身體裡的水逼出來？」
他居然敢揶揄我？免不了得到我飽以老拳！
他還是想要孩子的，聽完我說想生孩子，他眼下興奮的光芒大大的告訴我這一點。
只不過，那抹光芒在閃爍之後隨即斂去，他又正襟危坐的問了我一個問題。
「妳真的想生？」
「想啊，我一個人在家好無聊。」
「只是因為無聊？如果一個人在家無聊，妳想出去學東西、去工作、和朋友去逛街，我不會阻撓妳。」
「你不是也想嗎？」我生氣了，縱然淚眼婆娑沒什麼說服力。
他開始說起那個四千兩百公克的巨嬰，
原來那名女性朋友的經驗不僅嚇到我，也嚇到他了。
他不希望我生孩子還要受極大的痛苦，
什麼剖腹產、自然產，他一點概念也沒有，只知道一定會很痛。
他明白我怕痛，所以他捨棄了生孩子的想法。

「我不管，我要生。」明瞭了他的想法後，我更希望替他生一個孩子，
身體裡流著我和他血液的孩子。
「那就生吧！」他悄悄的在我耳邊說了一句令我臉紅的話
「你這麼有精力？不是上班很累嗎？」我狐疑他話裡的真實性。
經他解釋，我才恍然大悟，就算工作累，他偶爾也有慾望，
有時晚上摟著我，又看我睡得香甜，
這種看得到吃不到的痛苦，他只能鬱鬱的悶在自己心裡。
面對他的心意，我，真的無言了。

在我像兩顆水蜜桃的雙眼略為消腫後，他催我換衣服，帶我出門。
已經好久沒和他一起出遊了，在兩人間的冷淡破冰後，
坐在他身邊竟也給我當初戀愛的感覺。
我凝望著他專心駕駛的側臉，將他的動作姿態深深刻在心裡，
因為我差點忘了，我和他之間還橫著一個問題。
那張離婚協議書。我要一輩子記住他的模樣，如果他最後仍是簽了名。
可是，他應該不會簽吧？否則，他何必和我討論生孩子的事……

「到了。」他停車，我也隨之下車。
海風迎面吹來，是淡水。
他也記得這個地方，這個我們記憶珍藏的地方。
「我一直想帶妳來，可是妳假日都和朋友出門，我只好蒙著棉被在家睡覺。」他如此說道。
這是個什麼烏龍？我體諒他工作累，他體諒我和朋友出門，
就這樣，我們錯過了一次又一次的相伴。
「你以後想幹什麼，可以直接說！」我惱火的盯著他。
「妳也是。」他正經八百的回視我，言下之意是要我別五十步笑百步。

說來也好笑，我們一直認為自己是在為對方著想，
以自己的方式去體貼對方，這種自以為是卻導致了無數個陰錯陽差，
一直懷疑自己不愛他，他也不愛我了，才驚覺這份愛並不是消逝，
而是溶入了生活之中，自然的讓人忘了它的存在。

愛情的表現，可以是黏膩、親熱、奉獻、祝福，
甚至是退讓，每個人的方式不同，會導致的結果各異。
我的方式是盲目的付出，他的方式是全然的關懷，
乍看之下兩個人都沒錯，可是無論什麼方式，
中間少了一種叫「溝通」的元素，就容易導致裂痕。
我們的婚姻，就是建築在這種缺乏溝通的空中樓閣之上，
嫁給這個男人五年了，我以為我漸漸的不愛他，
但只是一番簡單的剖白心意，我對他所有的愛再度復活，甚而轉濃。

女人會因男人長久的冷落而對愛情失望，
也可以因男人一句話又對愛情充滿希望，
我──不想和他離婚，一點兒也不想，
當初硬著頭皮簽下名，或許只是賭氣，只是要他正眼看看我，
可是……「那、那張離婚協議書……」我要收回來。
「在公司裡。」他好整以暇，「公司的碎紙機裡。」
這個意思是……？「妳想離婚，等我成為亡夫時再說吧！」
我估量不出他說這句話是不是在開玩笑，不過他又騙到我的淚水。
他真的很愛我……即使他沒有說過。
我想，如果我堅持離婚，他會放我走的，
他捨不得見我難過，就像他見我掉淚又趕快摟住我一樣。
倘若，是他想離婚呢？
恕我自私，我是堅決不會放的，除非等我變成亡妻，
同樣因為他捨不得見我難過，我自信可以留住他。

「淡水整個都變了，我都快不認識了。」哄完了我，他連忙帶開話題。
「我來過，我知道有什麼景點。」
「那這次就要靠妳帶路囉。」
是啊，我們可以開創新的回憶，
只要有我也有他，什麼時間地點都不成問題。
結婚五年，我又發現了一次愛情。

怎样？？？是不是很触动你的心？？？
你是不是有所发现？？
珍惜身边人哦。。。

bring me away~~

2009-02-22T21:44:00.000-08:00

just finish studying stats for tmr test.. i wander since when i am so stress with all the test and even just a small quiz... what happen to me...

y everyone just like to make fun of me?? or am i too sensitive that i cant take it?? y am i so emotional?? HATE!!

the song from rainnie from my blog.. bring me away.. really touch me.. pls bring me out from all the stress~~!!! i know "you" can do it..

dear i am sorry for all the things i make u worry.. i dunno what can i do but i just can appologize to u.. i am so sorry.. sorry for making myself stress and never come back on time.. i am so sorry.. I love u.. sorry..

appreciate~~

2009-02-15T11:48:00.000-08:00

appreciate whatever we had.. don aspect anything beyond it..

these few days.. really had plenty things going on.. everything in my life especially my studies.. i lost all of my confident i dunno y my mood swing so fast.. i get tired very fast..

the thing that always go through my head..

i appreciate my family.. because i have a wonderfull and peacfull family..
i apprecaite my friend.. because they gave me happiness.. especially MOMO gang and EMO gang..
i appreciate what i have.. because i have a life blessing by everyone..

finally i appreciate U, my dear SY samuel.. words cant describe my feeling but i told myself i will appreciate you and i really love u.. many of things happen but i am still happy that i know u.. a word thanks cannot mean anything.. time will show everyone things.. i am glad i had a wonderfull valentines day spending with u whole day on skype.. i know it sounds funny for ppl but i know what am i doing.. i am really happy to know u... :)

many ppl think that i am playfull.. but i don think anyone knows my real attitude.. i am just playfull and outgoing when playing with friends.. i mind ppl say that i am playfull in relationship.. I AM NOT!! but what can i do?? is it because i am young so i should play???? i don think relationship is something we can play.. even in friendship or family.. i am serious in everything.. i am serious in having fun which means i will enjoy when i am having fun.. i am serious in studying which means i will study to get good results.. i am serious in relationship which means i really put all of my heart inside.. i am serious with my family.. which means i need to bring happiness and everything to made my family proud.. i really love my family.. DAD MOM 2 BROTHERS.. always quarrel?? yes.. but everyone stays together sure will quarrel.. but after that we are still a happy family.. is same to me and samuel.. he always care bout me and let me everything.. i know some of them will keep saying i am not serious but he never give up on me.. i really dunno what to do.. but i will let time to prove everything.. i know there is nothing i can do..

something had change on me.. i dunno y i feel so stress now with everything.. wanting to be best on everything?? i am not genius i know i need to rest.. what had happen on me?? i thought i wouldn't care how ppl look at me?? but afterall i mind?? is it so important??? y cant i just appreciate what i have?? thats the point.. i know i cant complain anything and i know stress will make me grow.. :) i won complain anything but continue to get good results..

for everything i had.. i appreciate..

few ppl i wanna thanks..
1) my family - my mom and my dad.. and also 2 lovely brother
2) me dear samuel - love u as a part of my life
3) MOMO gnag - EVERYONE in it.. thanks for everything..
4) EMO gang - especially my twin sis roxy.. wahaha.. but everyone.. i know sometimes i make u all piss off.. but i wanna tell everyone EMO gang ppl are all friendly and nice to each other.. oh ya and one more is FRED.. wahaha.. because he is with me now in Drake.. so anything happen i will just FIND him and let me BLAME on HIM!! wahaha.. poor him.. =p

HAPPY VALENTINES DAY!! SNOWING~~

2009-02-13T22:47:00.000-08:00

hey everyone... HAPPY VALENTINES DAY!!! in US now cant really go out and celebrate with my loves one.. so come and write blog... now in US is feb 14 12:50am.. the day before feb 13 snow heavily.. the land is now covered with snow again... i thought spring was coming.. :-S now really feel the winter..

recieve any gift from ur loves one?? this year.. i recieve the most special gift.. a gift need not to be expensive but meaningfull and touch... is really touch and is the best valentines gift i ever had... :) but what is it i will just keep it to myself.. =p hehehe... as everyone know is from my dear.. :)

today went outside the dorm to play snow.. the snow is too soft... is hard to built a snow man... hehe.. i will post some picture here and video.. let u all see.. :)

can u see it's snowing??

the snow man that we made.. =p

the snowman has been moved..=p

look at kang han

can u see it is snowing.. ok will show u some of the video... :) nothing much.. just have fun.. :)

SNOW TUBING~~~ delta sigma pie

2009-02-07T14:05:00.000-08:00

me and daine sliding down.. =p wierd.. =p

hmm... yesterday went to snow tubing due to the activity of delta sigma pie.. as a rush membet in order to join into the professional team.. i have to go for every activity... what i have done for this week is on monday we had a formal way where introduce ourselves to other members.. is super duper hard to get in where i have to go to the interview on tomorrow which is sunday... wednesday there is a basketball match so we had to go and watch and cheer for our team... and friday which is yesterday is the most fun where we went SNOW TUBING!!! is really fun... attendance was taken... so isn't it fun to join although it was strict?? haha... =p

the weather was getting warmer and warmer... they made fake snow so we can slide down.. hehe... din really take much photo but took some video coming down.. kinda silly seeing myself.. wahaha... =p

得失心

2009-02-03T13:20:00.000-08:00

好久都没写华语了，感觉上好像生疏了一点... =p hmmm... 得失心？？？本人忽然间有一个看法！！刚念完书（因为差不多每个星期都有考试~.~）... 哈哈... 不得不读... 自己一个人静静躺着，总觉得在过去时，因为得失心太强，弄得自己很不开心.... 虽然有时告诉自己没关系但多少都有点在意失败.... 但我知道我失败了是不会放弃！！但是，有谁不想成功？？？

hmm... 但是因为得失心太重，也让我学习了不少东西... 在音乐界里，我记得因为我得失心太重，所以在很小时就跳级... 我不得不承认很怕听到一些不想听到的东西... 但是又要问到底... 也不知道为什么自己很在意比不上别人... 很怕别人怎么看我... 自己总希望每样东西都做到最好... 一些不喜欢的事情，我记得例如画画，在美术班得到oscar award.. 自己也不知道会得到，但我也知道因为我不想别人看不起我... 但是，我相信这只是我自己的看法... 别人根本不理我... 虽然知道人生最大的敌人总是自己.... 我很希望可以破除自己的“恶魔”... 一些简单的事情看到很复炸，弄得自己压力大，心情不好！！

虽然这篇文章不知道为了什么而写，但是只是自己忽然的看法！！=p

SNOW BOARD SLEIGING!!!

2009-02-01T16:46:00.000-08:00

this is the video i took while i sliding down... stop half way.. =p accidentally press...

went board sliding on the 31 of jan... actually prepare to go shopping at mer hey... but end up sam ask us to go to board sleiging... is really fun!! really enjoy sleiging.. hmm... i also dunno what to write... just post some pic.. really enjoy.. ^^

look at it.. it was a gold club but cover by snow..

my turn to slide.. :)

jason, dhaya, siva, ashwin, fred

jason.. y is he so tall.. =p

dhaya

some seniors build a snow man.. so cute... =p

after that... went for ice-cream.. sneakers.. :)

changes~~

2009-01-30T19:51:00.000-08:00

the changes in my life... everyone will change.. from kids to teenage and to adults... every stage.. diff challenge.. diff expect..

i change.. yes i do.. some ppl may like some ppl may not... i am still the same perhaps.. childish in many ways... but try to be strong sometimes... is that me?? i found that i don understand myself sometimes...

things and life are getting harder... i dunno whether i am brave enough to face all the challenge... i like to take challenge... i can say i am not easy to give up... nowadays i like to stay in my own room.. chat and watch tv... sometimes do some notes.. is kinda surprise i tell ppl to study.. but i dunno what am i doing... iowa here is pretty "dead"... i still love KL life.. =p but almost use to it.. time is getting fast.. almost 3 weeks here d... i hope everything is fine...

there is something never change which is my love to my friends and my family and my dear... i always love u all... hope u all will be happy all the time... and sorry that sometimes being too childish... i just scared to be alone...

HAPPY CNY

2009-01-28T15:42:00.001-08:00

class had started for 2 weeks... having homework and quizes already... and is kinda shit i kinda screw up... gotta work hard... cant get to celebrate cny and wear new clothes... but get to celebrate with most of the malaysian senior here... unfortunately no pic i had taken.. :( had fun with it.. and met many new seniors and ppl...

things are getting harder and harder and i need to start to plan my future and everything.. started to be scared and i really dunno what is it going on in my future... cant worry bout it the only thing i can do is work hard.. chances are meant to create for ppl who are prepared are ready.. so the only think i can do is actually work hard and the chances will come automatically... and many things just will come when u don expect it... when u expect it.. it will not really come.. i wander why... =p

feeling kinda stress now... and i am not as smart as other ppl.. i had to work extra extra hard for it... i am really scared i cant make it for many things.. what i know is learn from my mistakes... need to be extra hardworking but is not in my "character list"...

well... start to look for job on campus but of course i need to wait for them to see whether there is space... i hope i can work and get extra COFFEE!!! =p

i dunno what to write... HAPPY CNY everyone... miss everything in malaysia.. btw.. i almost used to the weather and everything here... had to work hard... :)

life on campus

2009-01-21T20:36:00.001-08:00

aikz... 1st time living on campus... many things happen... haha... just the day before my class start.. my room mate came... and.. now i know why my room is near the male toilet... is because they place me in a wrong room.. and my room mate is a male.. oh my gosh... so now... i move into another room.. double also but without a room mate... can say so lucky cause i no need to pay extra for single room... =p

2nd thing... still not used to it where i have to share a public toilet... where i need to shit, bath everything there.. aikz... and the room got so many DUST!! i guess i wipe for so many times d... and inside got a few died flies... aikz... and the heater is full of dust... oh ya... and there is an insect coming out from the heater.. aiyo... i called fred help me to kill it.. =p haha.. thank u...

study hope i can get it.. many assignment and quizes are coming up.. so i hope i am not lazy... i hope i can be back in malaysia.. =p because i wanna enjoy my personal toilet.. wahaha.. =p

move into my dome

2009-01-19T20:22:00.001-08:00

move into my dome since saturday... lazy to blog so now only blog... hmm.. on the saturday... move in around 12.. thanks for everyone who help me to move my luggage... i live in JEWETT HALL... hmm... 1st time sharing room with ppl... and need to share toilet... one floor one toilet.. obviosly one for male one for female.. the hall got 2 grand piano!! wow.. and can play ping pong, pool... haha... sounds quite fun... ^^

my room mate haven move in.. so till now my room is still consider all mine.. =p haha...

one week in US d... hmm.. i cant imagine i have to be here for at least 4 months 1st.. =p hmm... and oh ya.. after moving in.. have to go to walmart and buy so many stuff.. wahaha.. 1st time going some where like TESCO in malaysia to buy things... and today i went to vest village to shop.. wanna get a pair of shoes but i never get... aikz... my shoes spoilt d... aikz..

lets see when got time go buy... trying to get use to US life.. tmr start class d.. sleep now..

the holiday inn

the hotel

i love S.Y.. heehee..

my bed..

my table

jack, hong thong and me playing around

last day in HOLIDAY INN

2009-01-16T22:45:00.000-08:00

holiday inn was the hotel drake paid for us to live in for 4 days.. tomorrow i will be moving in to my campus... haha... so trying to enjoy the bed here... trying to enjoy the toilet here.. because in campus everyone will be sharing a toilet.. =p where boys and girls can be on the same floor... =p haven really go to walmart to buy some stuff... deside to move into it first and will see what should i buy... hmm...

classes starting next tuesday... staying here for 4 days... is like actually quite a long time.. =p cause to say seriously i really not used to it... i need time to used to it... snowing today... and the weather today is only -8 so is ok la... haha.. still quite cold till my lips burst.. ish...

just had a small party in my senior's house.. and we just introduce ourselves and get to know ppl more... ^^ quite enjoyed at least all the seniors help us out... ^^

nothing to say... will post pic for u to see my room if i move in... post pic now..

this area is somewhere near my uni... US they don fence their house..

my shoes can deep inside the snow.. ^^

arrived in US

2009-01-14T19:27:00.003-08:00

US and Malaysia had 14 hours difference... now is jan14 9.30pm and its 11.30am jan 15 in malaysia... arrived in US at US time 13th jan around 7... sorry... now only blog.. cause need to settle something and i need time to blog.. haha.. bloggin pic a bit mafan but is ok la...

it's crazy and when we arrived is SNOWING!!! walao.. it's -17 degrees C.. tonight i heard is going to be -30... OMG!!! so i din went out instead... so i stay in the hotel plan by drake.. cause i cant move into my campus yet... its only open on 17th..

what i have done today is went to the US bank and open a account... went to drake and made my ID card... and ate my lunch at almost 3.30... oh my gosh... the US bank took me lots of time.. aikz... went to a chinese restaurant to eat... but the food kinda big dish.. haha.. me and fred and kang han cant finish... fred no mood.. =p haha... sun set at 5pm.. so walk back quickly before it set... wanna play SNOWBALL FIGHT.. haha... fred no glove cant play.. =p cause cant take out my hand.. is really freezing.. i guess the weather was -20++... OH NO!!! is cold.. but the snow was really nice and it has sparkels on it.. shines... *** the snow was 1 feet tall for some place.. haha.. but i heard is normal... they had 3 feet tall snow... wow!! the snow is soft and it's nice to step on it.. can make ICE KACANG!!! haha...

oh ya.. and the world is so small.. my hotel room mate was honey yam from catholic.. haha.. not close at all in chs.. but we met... SUCH A SMALL WORLD!!! ok la.. tmr orientation.. i shall stop blogging here... :) pic time...

this is chicago.. took from the train taking to another terminal...

arrived in des moines... look it's snowing outside.. took inside the car..

this is the view beside my hotel.. is night time...

nice? the plants covered by snow

look at how thick the snow can be.. and is nice where u can play SNOWBALL FIGHT!!! but is too cold.. =p

this building is one part of my uni... i guess.. =p

lunch.. this chicken taste like GU LOU YOK... =p haha..

on the way to US

2009-01-12T15:50:00.000-08:00

just arrive japan around 2 hours d... yesterday emo till no tears now... :( japan time is 8.50am now... and i have to wait for 10 hours!!! to wait for 2nd flight... holy shit!! =p i guess in malaysia everyone is still sleeping... cause now is only 7.50am... aiyo... i feel so emo now la... i miss my home.. i miss everything now... thanks to MOMO gang for everything.. and i am now listening to all the songs... hehe.. ^^ everyone download SKYPE!!! TALK TO ME!!!

was kinda boring.. sitting down looking at the plane.. and online!! cost me 500yen.. =p

this ramen even more expensive than internet... =p not bad la.. haha..

the tokyo narita airport.. is LONG!!

before i went to the airport.. on the 12th.. met with alan and yean in the afternoon for lunch at centerpoint... ^^ thanks yea... than after that i have to come back and pack for last few things... than in the evening momo gang come.. had dinner in my house.. suddenly feel so emo.. because i really feel sad to leave... keep crying only... sorry... at klia... my tears cant stop after i say BYE... i know is just leaving for studies.. not migrating.. but i dunno y.. i feel so so emo... i miss my home.. i miss everything.. i hope i can get used to it... fred in the airport.. as usual also emo.. i see him emo i also emo d.. =p have no mood to do things... aikz... in the plane cant get to sleep... but hope is fine... ^^

oh ya.. and thanks for MOMO gang spending time to record.. wahaha.. u guys are my greatest group of friends.. love u all... ^^

yean, alan, me

dinner in my house

nice card design by MOMO gang.. thanks... really touch...

group shot..

with the guys

with the girls

my family

kang han, fred and me

i guess... me and fred had a super big gang of friends to send us.. =p haha... but MOMO gang shouted I LOVE U SHING YIING to me.. make me paiseh wei.. =p but that time i was tearsing and really touch... i really miss my family and everything...

few more days before leaving to US...

2009-01-09T03:11:00.000-08:00

wa... sound so sad and emo... haha... these few days basically have to really enjoy lo... haha... with friends... enjoy almost one month d lo.. haha... getting lazy.. hopefully won be lazy in US... =p

hmm... on 8th of jan... went out with simon.. dear and my best ji mui yuen wah... haha... already 2 years never met with simon... OMG... he change dam a lot.. we went to sri petaling to yam cha... and go to oug pasar malam... stupid... never take pic with simon... bring camera also forgot... aikz... i dam forgetfull nowadays.. oh ya... met meeyi, wai seng, wai phan, phiak yee, jian wen at night market.. oh my god... haha... and few more friends... forgot the name... =p haha....

anyway... wish all the best to them... ^^

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before leaving at lrt station... emo.. =p

on the 9th of jan... went out with EMO roxy and kath... haha... finally out of so many years... we went to take sticker photo... haha... at sg.wang... last time seeing them... feel so emo... but i really happy to know the gang of EMO... all of them are leaving d... roxy and kath are going to AUS... all the best to everyone also.. hopefully our LA trip will success.... ^^ love all of u... and for those in US... remember to meet.. =p haha... keep in touch everyone... ^^

the sticker photo we took... =p

leaving soon.... EMO

2009-01-08T01:14:00.001-08:00

leaving to US soon... left few days for me to enjoy with my friends... packing everything and get everything ready... feel so excited to go.. but miss a lot of things... i believe i can do my very best there... and hopefully i really manage to get a degree in 2 years time.. and i also hope i can finish at least one or two professional actuarial science paper in this 2 years... by myself... miss my performance time a lot... :(

yesterday went out with my cousin to hartamas.. soho kl i think... a very nice place.. have chocolate dessert and also baskin robin... =p yummy!!! haha... left few days and hopefully can meet up few friends and have a meal before i leave... but i will be back on summer... i guess.. haha... should say i plan... but i dunno what will happen there... i really dunno... hope everything will be fine... ^^

will stop here... i dunno what to continue.. just to update if not my blog will be dead.. =p

which cartoon character you are...

2009-01-07T19:55:00.002-08:00

1. Which one of the following describes the perfect date?

a) Candlelight dinner (4 pts.)

b) Fun/Theme Park (2 pts.)

c) Painting in the park (5 pts)

d) Rock concert (1 pt.)

e) Going to the movies (3 pts.)

2. What is your favourite type of music?

a) Rock and Roll (2 pts.)

b) Alternative (1 pt.)c) Soft Rock (4 pts.)

d) Country (5 pts )

e) Pop (3 pts.)

3. What type of movies do you prefer?

a) Comedy (2 pts.)

b) Horror (1 pt.)

c) Musical (3 pts.)

d) Romance (4 pts.)

e) Documentary (5 pts.)

4. Which one of these occupations would you choose if you only could choose one of these?

a) Waiter (4 pts.)

b) Professional Sports Player (5 pts.)

c) Teacher (3 pts.)

d) Police (2 pts.)

e) Cashier (1 pt)

5 What do you do with your spare time?

a) Exercise (5 pts.)

b) Read (4 pts.)

c) Watch television (2 pts.)

d) Listen to music (1 pt.)

e) Sleep (3 pts.)

6. Which one of the following colors do you like best?

a) Yellow (1 pt.)

b) White (5 pts.)

c) Sky Blue (3 pts)

d) Dark Blue(2 pts.)

e) Red (4 pts.)

7. What do you prefer to eat?

a) Snow (3 pts.)

b) Pizza (2 pts.)

c) Sushi (1 pt.)

d) Pasta (4 pts.)

e) Salad (5 pts.)

8. What is your favorite holiday ?

a) Halloween(1 pt.)

b) Christmas (3 pts.)

c) New Year (2 pts.)

d) Valentine's Day (4 pts.)

e) Thanksgiving (5 pts.)

9. If you could go to one of these places which one would it be?

a) Paris (4 pts.)

b) Spain (5 pts)

c) Las Vegas (1 pt)

d) Hawaii (4 pts)

e) Hollywood (3 pts)

10. With which of the following would you prefer to spend time with?

a ) Someone Smart (5 pts.)

b) Someone attractive (2 pts.)

c) Someone who likes to Party (1 pt.)

d) Someone who always has fun (3 pts.)

e) Someone very sentimental (4 pts.)

Now add up your points and find out the answer you have been waiting for!Put you r character in the subject line and forward to your friends and back to the person that sent this to you. Very interesting to see 'who' your friends are!

(10-16 points) You are Garfield :

You are very comfortable, easy going, and you definitely know how to have fun but sometimes you take it to an extreme. You always know what you are doing and you are always in control of your life. Others may not see things as you do, but that doesn't mean that you always have to do what is right. Try to remember, your happy spirit may hurt you or others.

(17-23 points) You are Snoopy:

You are fun; you are very cool and popular. You alw ays know what's in and you ' re never out of style , you are good at knowing how to satisfy everyone else. You have probably disappeared for a few days more than once but you always come home with the family values that you learned Being married and having children are important to you, but only after you have had your share of fun times

(24-28 points) You are Elmo:

You have lots of friends and you are also popular, always willing to give advice and help out a person in need. You are very optimistic and you always see the bright side of things. Some good advice: try not to be too much of a dreamer. Dreaming too big could cause many conflicts in y o ur life.

(29-35 points) You are Sponge Bob Square Pants:

You are the classic person that everyone loves. You are the best friend that anyone could ever have and never wants t o lose. You never cause harm to anyone and they would never not understand your feelings. Life is a journey, it's funny and calm for the most part Stay away from traitors and jealous people and you will be stress free.

(36-43 points) You are Charlie Brown:

You are tender, you fall in love quickly but you are also very serious about all relationships. You are a family person. You call your Mom every Sunday. You have many friends and may occasionally forget a few Birthdays. Don't let your passion confuse you with reality.

(44-50 points ) You are Dexter:

You are smart and definitely a thinker... Every situation is fronted with a plan. You have a brilliant mind. You demonstrate very strong family principles. You maintain a stable routine but neve r ignore a bad situation when it comes. Try to do less over thinking every once in a while to spice things up a bit with spontaneity!

處女情結

2009-01-07T19:47:00.000-08:00

this story really touching.. so wanna post to my blog for everyone... ^^

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莫名其妙的和她上床，也糊裡糊塗的接受她。
明知自己不是她第一個男人，但為了孩子，不得不娶她。
就因為不是她第一個男人，他一直懷疑肚子裡的孩子真是他的嗎？
孩子出世了，和他如同一轍，宛如一個模子印出來一樣，
他才承認這是他的對她的疑心也隨著一句句的～～孩子跟你好像。～～漸漸降低。　

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今天是他們結婚第二年，沒有鮮花，沒有甜言蜜語，當然也不會有燭光晚餐。淑靜照往常一樣靜靜地在家等候柏正，已經十點了，他還沒有回來。這是當初她選擇他的其中原因之一，但是她萬萬沒想到，博正的（處女情結）竟然那麼深。從結婚到現在，只要淑靜拒絕柏正，柏正都會說：「又不是沒經驗，裝什麼處女。嫌我技術比妳以前的男人差？」可是淑靜想要解釋，柏正又說：「好啦！好啦！我知道啦！妳不用說了，反正妳學歷比我高，口才比我好嘛！」就這樣，淑靜過著做不能做，說不能說的婚姻生活。她好痛苦。

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他們平均一個月回去鄉下一次，看公婆也看小孩。小孩已經一歲了，稍微會扶著東西走路。淑靜除了逗弄小孩之外，還拖地，洗衣；中午她把飯煮好叫大家來吃。小姑舀了一些蘿蔔湯起來「媽，妳今天怎麼把蘿蔔切的這麼大塊？」「那是妳二嫂煮的。」婆婆把責任推給媳婦。淑靜的大伯看到淑靜好像快哭出來，連忙說：「你們怎麼那麼笨，蘿蔔切大塊煮起來才好吃，妳沒看到外面的人賣蘿蔔湯都是切這樣的嗎？」淑靜看著大伯站出來替自己圓場，可是博正一句話也不說，心不禁冷了下來。

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過年期間，許多親戚都來到鄉下拜年，有的還會住下一，二天；淑靜坐在小板凳，看著像一座小山的衣服不禁皺起眉頭。剛剛大伯看到淑靜抱著一大桶衣服往外走，就說丟到洗衣機就好了，可是婆婆說衣服用洗衣機洗會變皺，而且這些衣服都是新的，一定要用手洗；淑靜只好把衣服抱到外面洗。迎著冷風，把手伸進冷的像冰的水，又抽離起來，搓著雙手；她咬緊牙根把衣服一件一件的在洗衣板上搓洗，當她弄好時已經是二個小時後的事了。晚上婆婆在樓上對著公公發牢騷，「她瞎了是不是？一隻襪子也不知道要拿去洗，還把博文的衣服染成這樣。」「淑靜又不是故意的，那隻襪子塞在桶子旁邊，她可能沒看到；博文的衣服就不要穿了嘛！幹嘛這樣大驚小怪的。」公公在旁幫淑靜說情。婆婆在樓上講話，幾乎樓下的她們都有聽到，淑靜只能坐在那裡接受審判。

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這幾天大伯帶著女朋友去墾丁玩，順道來博正的家住一晚；因為淑靜在果菜批發商裡做會計，所以早上六點就要上班。大伯一早起來聽博正說淑靜去上班了，他和女朋友心想淑靜大概還沒吃早餐吧！兩人買了一份早餐送給淑靜吃。淑靜接著這一份熱騰騰的早餐，眼淚差點留下來，連她自己的老公都沒這麼體貼。淑靜懷孕了，連續好幾天晚上電話鈴聲響，博正去接，對方都沒有出聲音，最後博正有聽到一個男人的聲音。他掛斷電話，「妳在外面交男朋友？」「你在說什麼啊？」淑靜一臉疑惑。「妳給我戴綠帽子，是不是？這肚子裡的孩子是誰的？」博羲瑭y上寫滿了忌妒，懷疑。「這肚子裡的孩子當然是你的，還會有誰的？」淑靜撫著肚子想保護她。「我的？妳想騙誰，男人都找到這裡來了。走，去把她拿掉。走。」拉起淑靜往外走。「博正，你不要這樣好不好？就為了一通莫名其妙的電話，你就判我,這種行你太不可理喻了。」淑靜甩開他的手，摸著被他拉疼的地方。我不可理喻？對，我就是不可理喻，我就是不要這個孩子，走，去拿他。」博正不管淑靜的掙扎，硬把她帶到醫院拿掉孩子。淑靜萬念俱灰躺在床上哭，博正連一句安慰話也沒。就這樣，只要淑靜一懷孕，他就帶她去拿掉孩子。

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淑靜的媽媽遠從花蓮來看淑靜，她看到淑靜消瘦的身材，面無血色的臉龐，問她，「淑靜，妳是沒在吃，是不是？怎麼瘦那麼多。「有呀！」「有？有會那麼瘦，簡直不成人樣。」媽媽捨不得的說。淑靜把事情從頭到尾說給媽媽聽，媽媽聽的大發雷霆，「跟他離婚，我們家這一口飯給妳。」「媽，妳不要生氣啦！這是我選的，我就該承擔。」「妳怎麼那麼傻，當初為什麼不告訴媽媽，媽媽可以帶妳去做手術。」「我也沒想那麼多。」那妳現在怎麼辦？一懷孕就拿掉？妳不知道這比生小孩還要傷身體嗎？」媽媽真擔心才二十二歲的淑靜怎麼過未來幾十年的婚姻生活？「媽，我也不知道該怎麼辦？」她喑喑咽咽的哭起來。媽媽拍拍她的肩，「別哭，媽媽帶妳去醫院裝避孕器。既然博正不愛惜妳，妳要愛惜妳自己，知道嗎？」

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淑靜利用果菜市場休假期間回去看小孩，小姑常常向她提起一個男孩子。淑靜了解小姑戀愛了，可是那個男孩竟比小姑小三歲，公婆當然不答應。二日來，她觀察小姑每天早上都會從皮包裡拿個像避孕藥丸的東西吃，淑靜又不敢私自打開小姑的皮包，只好回去時再告訴博正。「真有這種事？」博正不大相信。「這只是我的猜測。博正，你要不要叫小姑來我們這邊問看看？」「嗯～我會打電話給她，先騙她說要帶她去玩，等她來了再問吧！」博正拿電話家，終於她上勾了，就等她星期日來的時候再說。

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「二哥，二嫂，我來了。」博美一進門就找他們。看到小姑來了，淑靜好高興，「妳來了呀！來，坐。」博正從房裡出來，「坐車會不會累？」博美接下二嫂的飲料，「不會，二哥，你要帶我到哪裡去玩？」「看妳想去哪裡玩，二哥就帶妳去；不過妳要老實的回答二哥的問題。」博正神色凝重的說。「幹嘛！二哥，表情那麼嚴肅，好吧！你問。」博美不知死活的喝著飲料。「聽爸媽說妳交了一個男朋友？」「嗯！」「而且還小妳三歲？」「嗯！」「你們進展到什麼地步了？牽手？接吻？還是已經……發生關係？」「我…..」博美不知該怎麼說？博正看到妹妹的表情和支支吾吾的說不出話來，大概也知道答案。「爸媽絕不會答應妳嫁給一個小妳三歲的男人，妳知道吧！」「我頂多不嫁。」博美嘔氣的說。「不嫁？就跟那個混小子一直鬼混下去？」博正對著妹妹吼。從來沒有被哥哥罵過的博美，哭了起來。淑靜坐在她旁邊安慰博美：「小姑，妳哥哥是關心妳，女人總是老的比較快，他怕到時妳嫁過去，人老珠黃時，那個男孩子會拋棄妳，了解嗎？」「二嫂，我知道，可是我沒辦法斷啊！我把一切都給他了。」博美講到這裡越哭越大聲。「沒有關係，二嫂帶妳去做處女膜手術，只要妳跟他不再往來，好不好？我們可以再重新開始。」淑靜抱著她。過了三個月，博美和那個男孩子總算不再往來，淑靜陪著博美去一家整形外科坐處女膜整形。回到家，博美拉著淑靜的手，「二嫂，謝謝妳。」淑靜只是笑一笑。「博美，妳二嫂已經帶妳去做了手術，以後不管怎樣都不能再隨便和男人上床，除非新婚之夜才可以，知不知道？」「二哥，我知道啦！」博美答應二哥，經過這次教訓，她不會再重蹈覆策了。

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過了一年，博美經由朋友介紹認識了一個男孩，交往半年，男方說他三十二歲年紀不小了，要到博美的家提親，博美也答應。訂婚後，男孩子都會暗示博美想要進一步的發展，但是博美想起二哥的叮嚀，都拒絕他。自從淑靜帶著博美去做手術後，兩人的關係比姊妹還要親。三個月後博美嫁出去了，淑靜很擔心博美的整形手術不知道會不會成功？在博美上禮車前，小聲的說：「小姑，明天早上記得打電話給我。」一早，淑靜就待在電話旁等候，婆婆來叫淑靜去掃地，洗衣，博正都會替淑靜回答：「媽，我來就好。」婆婆看著他們兩人感情什麼時候變這麼好，「不用了。」說完就走。終於鈴聲響了，淑靜馬上接起電話，「喂，小姑……成功了嗎？…真的……好，再見。」「怎樣？有成功嗎？」博正緊張的問她。「嗯！成功了。」淑靜笑一笑博正高興的抱著淑靜，「謝謝妳。」推開了博正，淑靜苦笑著，「不用謝我，我只是不想再有第二個吳淑靜。」說完就拿起掃把掃地。博正聽完淑靜的話，才知道自己傷害她有多深。他下定決心，從現在開始，他要好好的愛她。淑靜最近這幾個月的月經都不順，不是太早就是太晚，她不在意；直到這次的月經血流量多的讓她雙腳發軟，她才去看醫生。黃太太，妳這種情形已經多久？」醫生看到淑靜從內診室出來，問她。淑靜坐在椅子上，「大概將近一年了。」「妳怎麼拖那麼久才來？妳有拿過小孩吧？刮除不乾淨，再加上傷到子宮壁，妳的子宮裡長瘤，妳最好盡快開刀，要不然對妳不好喔！」醫生建議她。「醫生，那瘤是良性的還是惡性的？」「這要等妳開刀後拿去檢驗才知道。」

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她六神無主的坐在客廳，連博正回來了她也不知道。博正脫下外套，看淑靜呆呆的坐在那裡一動也不動，親一下她的臉，「為了公司的事心情不好？」被突來的親吻驚醒的淑靜，一想到她和博正好不容易才剛開始的甜蜜生活，萬一在開刀中不幸走了，那她怎麼走的開？「妳怎麼哭了？什麼事讓妳這樣苦惱？」博正擦擦她的淚。「我要開刀。」「開刀？為什麼要開刀？」博正看她好好的。「因為以前拿孩子太多次了，刮除不乾淨，再加上傷到子宮，我的子宮裡長瘤。」淑靜把醫生診斷的話說給博正聽。博正不敢相信自己以前的作為竟然造成淑靜現在的傷害那麼大，「什麼時候開刀？我陪妳。」「不用了，以前我生病你也沒陪我，這次我自己去就好。」淑靜不敢奢望。「淑靜，妳不要這樣好不好？我陪妳去，從頭到尾陪妳。」博正為自己的不是開始後悔。

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開刀房前，淑靜的媽媽看到博正緊張的走來走去，不屑的說：「博正，你現在走來走去是走真的？還是走給別人看的？要不是你醋桶那麼大，逼著淑靜一懷孕就拿掉，她今天會躺在開刀房任人宰割嗎？我是把話跟你講在前面，淑靜有個三長兩短，可別怪我不客氣。」博美看到親家母生氣的樣子，連忙出來替哥哥說情，「親家母，我二嫂不會有事的，二哥最近也對二嫂很好。」「最近才對她好有什麼用，平時不珍惜。」淑靜的媽媽替女兒打抱不平。「媽，對不起，我知道錯了，請妳原諒我。」博正一臉慚愧的蒂b丈母娘面前讓她數落。過了二個小時，「吳淑靜的家屬」護士在門口喊。看到有人走過來，「你們是吳淑靜的家屬？她已經在恢復室，看誰要過去陪她？」淑靜的媽媽雖然想要進去，但她知道目前淑靜最想看的人是誰，所以就叫博正進去。博正跟著護士來到淑靜的病床旁，淑靜的麻醉藥劑還沒退，躺在病床上像睡著一樣，消瘦的臉經過開刀更加沒有血色。博正深呼吸盡量不讓眼淚留下來。他聽護士的話，盡量跟淑靜說話不要讓她睡著。淑靜隨著麻醉藥劑漸漸退了，身體的病痛也越來越難過，她拉扯床巾，一直搖頭喊痛。博正一夜沒睡陪著她，這就是他種下的孽，也是他要承受的果。可是淑靜受的苦比他還多。第二天，醫生來探房，簡單的和淑靜問幾句話後，叫博正出來。「你太太的檢驗報告出來了，是惡性腫瘤，而且已經轉變成癌症。」博正不敢相信，「會不會檢驗錯了？」醫生搖搖頭，「黃先生，她剩下的日子不多，好好陪她吧！」看到博正進來，淑靜問他，「博正，醫生跟你說什麼？怎麼那麼久。」「沒事，他只是說這幾天傷口好了就可以出院了，我剛剛去打電話給媽媽，告訴她這個好消息。」「喔！是這樣。我想睡了，可不可以請你幫我把床搖下來一點。」「好。」博正慢慢地把床搖下來，看著淑靜睡了，眼淚一滴滴的掉。

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「你還我女兒來…還我女兒來……她好好的一個人嫁到你們家，做牛做馬，毫無怨尤……你還這樣對待她……你還是人嗎？」博正跪在靈前，任由丈母娘怎麼打，怎麼罵，他都不還手也不還口。是他對不起她，是他害她年紀輕輕的就這麼走了。「親家母，別打了，我知道這對妳很不公平，可是人死不能復生，妳就別再傷心了。」博正的爸爸扶起她。「把她送回花蓮。」淑靜的媽媽很痛心的說。博正的媽媽一聽到馬上反對，「不行，親家母，她嫁到我們家來就是我們的人了，怎麼可以把她送回去？」「你們的人？你們有當她是你們的人嗎？大冷天的叫她一個人洗一大桶的衣服，對她喚東喚西的，一下子要她做這個，一下子要她做那個，我看她是你們的僕人吧！」淑靜的媽媽把淑靜回娘家時說的苦處全說出來。「妳……」博正的媽媽說不出話。「我地已經買好了，她生前都沒人疼，死後你們會去看她嗎？」「媽，我求求妳，把她留下來好不好？」博正跪在淑靜的媽媽面前。「博正，不是我要把你們拆散，你有沒有想過，當你硬拖著淑靜去墮胎時，淑靜也是像你現在求我的樣子在哀求你，求你相信她，求你讓她生下孩子，可是你是怎麼對待她的？她每次一懷孕，你就帶她去墮胎。」博正的爸爸一聽到親家母的話，走過去揍博正一拳，「你這個畜生，你竟敢這樣對待淑靜，看我怎麼修理你。」他一拳一拳的揍在博正的身上，直到博文強拉開爸爸。「親家母，妳帶淑靜回去吧！」博正的爸爸答應她。

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今天是淑靜的忌日，博正牽著孩子來花蓮祭拜她。淑靜的媽媽正彎著腰拔著雜草，口中念念有詞的對著女兒說話。聽到一聲「媽。」她回過頭看到博正和孫子，不理會他們，繼續手上的動作，「你來這裡做什麼？你不覺得已經來不及了嗎？」博正把鮮花放在瓶子裡，因為淑靜在過世前，曾對他說：「博正，我沒有作對不起你的事，你要相信我。萬一我死了，可以送我一對鮮花嗎？」即使是每天一束花他都願意，只要淑靜可以活過來，可是已經來不及了。「這是淑靜在還沒嫁前寫的日記，你拿去吧！」淑靜的媽媽從袋子裡拿出一本厚厚的書交給博正。 ………我遇到那個叫博正的男孩，我好喜歡他………… ～～今天騎車和人家相撞，右腳的傷口好大，痛死了，全身酸痛，而且月經也來了，好奇怪，才十天而已怎麼就來了？…………… ～～博正今天帶我去海邊玩，全身曬的紅通通的，下次要去海邊一定要記得擦防曬油…………… ～～昨天晚上和博正睡在一起，第一次好痛喔！可是為什麼我沒有流血呢？奇怪，大家不是都說會流血的嗎？博正會不會誤以為我不是處女呀？………… ～～糟糕，月經已經超過一個月都沒來，怎麼辦？會不會是懷孕了？…………. ～～博正聽到我懷孕了，說要娶我，我好高興，可是他是因為愛我才娶我？還是因為肚子裡的小孩呢？…… ～～明天就要結婚了，我一定會好好的愛他，也會愛他的家人……… 「淑－靜－」博正概略的看完整本日記，大聲的喊著她的名字。「對不起，我對不起妳。妳原諒我好不好？淑靜……..」他跪在地上把頭一直撞墓碑。「起來吧！她最愛的人是你，每次她回來說起你家的事，雖然很傷心，但她都一一承受起來。只要你相信她，我想她在九泉之下會瞑目的。」淑靜的媽媽拉他起來。博正坐在地上，扯著頭髮，「我現在才相信她，已經太慢了。」淑靜的媽媽拉下博正的手，「博正，不會太慢，淑靜這孩子心很軟，只要你真心誠意的相信她，她一定會原諒你的。」每年，淑靜的墓前都會有一個男人，彎著身，拔著雜草，口中喃喃有辭的對著她說話。

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思念總在分手後....
為何總在失去後,才發現那是你的最愛!!
男人就是這樣,總是希望自己的女人是處女....
第一次就是要給他!!
但他們有沒有想過,若是處女又不見得是第一次...(可以去重做一個)
若不是處女又不一定不是第一次...(可能不小心傷到)
話又說回來,男人希望自己的老婆是處女, 自己又喜歡在婚前多玩幾個,這不是很矛盾嗎?
由此可見,男人最自私....(當然也有少部份優質男性)
但願像這樣的故事,能警惕各位男士,別讓它發生在你身上...
好好愛惜你身邊的紅粉知己吧!! 愛她疼她多照顧她

HAPPY NEW YEAR 2009!!!

2009-01-03T06:31:00.001-08:00

at miao and leo's condo

hmm... late for a few days... on new year's eve... went to miao and leo house.. to COUNTDOWN!!! haha... but too bad that day.. because too hungry till i feel like vomiting when i start eating... ate too fast... ish... but i enjoyed that day... from their house can see fireworks from curve.. 1u... and few places... WOW!!! hitting 20 this year.. and things started to change when i am going to US... facing many problem and emo... i guess i will definately miss malaysia a lot... dam a lot...

well... after that my ji mui yuen wah came my house overnight... had a chat till almost 4... haha.. than next day go out to pyramid some more.. walaoye... i guess i always go out with MOMO gang lo.. haha... post pic.. :)

look at wilson... =p cover my head

very 3 8.. =p posing with the vodka

i almost pengsan.. =p makan.. =p

all our hp

yuen wah, alicia, mei, me

small group shot

me, dear, wilson and teng teng

the girls... yuen wah, elle, mun, alicia, me

GROUP SHOT - HAPPY NEW YEAR!!

ali K.O??

just playing around.. ^^

leo mop the floor ^^

wilson helping or playing around??

i helping miao to wash the dish.. haha

at pyramid on 1.1.2009.. eating baskin robin

eating dinner

swimming day

2008-12-30T05:32:00.000-08:00

posing.. ^^

yesterday... december 29.. went to leo and miao's condo to swim... i guess we play water more than swimming.. haha... the water is sooo cold... end up everyone not swimming just playing... yeah.. elle know how to swim d... :) taught xiao mei how to swim... hehe.. xiao mei GA YAO... ^^

we all posing here and there.. a bit silly.. but enjoying... i also dunno what to write d... post picture only la... ^^

leo posing... ^^

blek...

elle, me, keong

under the swimming pool~~~

this pic so cute.. =p

we trying to help xiao mei.. hehe

elle

group shot...

keong's pose very nice.. hehe

wa.. nice shot.. =p

this wan look like sea side.. =p

posing like model??

keong teach us how to pose.. =p

walao.. look at the guys...

MERRY X'MAS!!!

2008-12-28T09:11:00.000-08:00

group shot at teng house...

just got the pic... so late post.. sorry... on the christmas eve... i went to teng house... to countdown for christmas... ^^ christmas.. 1st time really celebrate christmas la... so just have fun... ^^ have fun chatting with p2 gang and playing truth or dare.. =p haha... post pic.. ^^

seasons gang... hehe... winter, summer, spring

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GROUP SHOT!! (some of them leave d)

on the christmas day... as usual like every year.. morning i have to go for praying 1st... than after that can enjoy... ^^ at night had a party at dear's place... bbq party... knew quite a few of his friends... and all fighting for food.. =p so end up i just ate a bit.. and we had game.. and the MOMO gang played like crazy lo.. wahaha.. me and mun same group.. we CHUT MAO dam geng.. overall... ENJOYED... but CINDERELLA is always a CINDERELLA... haha.. i appologize everyone had to end up quite rush because dear had to send me home.. :( really sorry... btw.. my ji mui yuen wah came... eh thanks a lot JI MUI... U ARE MY JI MUI 4EVA!!! post pic now... ^^

mun, me, and yuen wah holding the cupcakes

cupcakes i bought... ^^

my ji mui pouring water for leo... =.= haha.. posing behind.. =p

momo gang + my ji mui

group photo

another group photo

i step 2 boats??? haha... silly pose la...

pose before bbq.. =p

continue pose

look kinda gross when it's not cook.. =p

4 golden flowers?? haha.. SMS + my ji mui

photo with my ji mui

chester.. this pic.. look like wedding photo.. =p

keong teach me how to pose... haha...

playing water..

momo gang singing.. (p.s: sorry a bit xia sui that day).. aunty janet carrying a cute girl.. ^^

GAME TIME!!

1) building tower with straws and an egg on top... prevent it from getting fall when we blow... =p wahaha... lets see how it goes...

group 1

my group... group 2.. :)

group 3

group 1 - nice tower ^^

wahaha... my group.. simply just to make it tall.. =p

group 3 - short and strong...

haha.. looks like the shorter one wins... ^^

2) i dunno what is it call... but u have to imitate the one before... haha... to guess what is the answer.. my group got "XIU KEONG".. and rest i forgot d.. haha... lets see...

look at chester imitate kok hay..

leo - nice pose.. =p

elle, me and wilson posing.. they came quite late.. but thanks for coming.. ^^

time to exchange present... ^^

group shot after exchange present.. momo gang and my ji mui only.. =p

SKY BAR - EMO GANG!!!

2008-12-27T19:30:00.000-08:00

SKY BAR - group shot.. (samuel, EMO me, crabby, EMO fred, EMO kath, EMO roxy, EMO shin, Jizelle, EMO sean)

on the 27th of december.. finally once we meet again... but without lester... ish.. he got family dinner... planning to go genting on the 30th... hope kathleen and fred can make it...

shin, lester, sean leaving on the 1st of jan... so fast.. my flight was on the 12th jan at night 11.45pm... so my friends... u know what to do.. =p emo lots of day.. maybe because i felt that my life is gonna change.. i really dunno what happen... or i can say this is my 1st time "steppping out the world"... i had been "staying at home" taken care by my family all the while... what i wan was soo easy to get... maybe this is my 1st time staying out by myself... i hope i will be ok.. i have no idea what is going to happen in US... is not as easy as i think... maybe things doesn't go according to my way.. but what i hope is happy and i can study hard to get my degree... and to prove to my mom i can do it... :) should say actually is for myself... :) have to give up my performance at the end of january with all the very idol... i wish all of them the best in their hopes and wishes... ^^

stop the emo part... now i should be happy and posting pic for sky bar... haha... ^^ well.. i drank 2 shots of vodka... and i am kinda dizzy... alamak.. but still not high and not drunk.. just super headache... so cha wan meh??? =p and drank one cocktail.. i guess still luna bar nicer...

cocktails

cheers ^^

the vodka we order - just some random number.. =p

kath

roxy

dear so red.. =p

the EMO gang

peace ^^

camhore in the toilet again.. :)

crabby not prepared. =p

group shot in front of the pool

lala pose.. =p

sean

fred

graduate from mainstream

2008-12-26T06:55:00.000-08:00

the "graduates"

on the 20th of december... i finally recieve my certificate from mainstream.. which is composing course and singing course... finally graduate from singing.. composing.. 1st level... =p din perform cause kinda lazy.. =p i have nothing to write... just post pic... after that... thanks to mun and miao for helping me to find biscuits... hehe... don wanna write the reasons i buy... keep it myself... =p and thanks to miao, leo and simon come and fetch me from halo... i thought need to rush.. mana tahu late start... =.=

see mun (rush from halo... before change =p)

leo.. my brother

chester.. another brother..

i am the audience.. ^^

wilson, khai mei and emily behind posing... me and deborah in front.. =p

recieve my certificate

MOMO gang shot!!

my class... all sampat.. =p me, alicia, leo, chester

YEAH GRADUATE!!!

gossip with roxy and bridget

2008-12-23T08:08:00.000-08:00

roxy, bridget and me

went to 1u today with roxy and bridget... and we went to eat vietnam food... wait so long~~ ish.. me and roxy not as hot as bridget.. bridget order last also come 1st.. =p than we gossip!!! haha... u know girls can really gossip la... =p so we talk non stop... finally meet my twin sis roxy bf jien hoong... tall, thin and friendly... haha... bridget talk non stop again.. =p

after that went to K.T.Z to drink again.. OMG!! bridget u can really eat & eat & EAT!!! haha.. =p roxy and bridget went for movie later... got things to do so i have to leave dulu... than fetch mun and mei... help me to wrap christmas present.. =p wahaha.... not bad.. they wrap a lot.. i wrap the least.. =p paiseh.. and i have to sign many cards.. =p like my autograph session.. wahaha... thanks to miao also.. help us out... thanks thanks thanks... will post some picture when i get... ^^

bridget and roxy... find one day we gossip again!!! =p

some idiot!!

2008-12-21T21:33:00.001-08:00

hmm... went to 1u yesterday.. with my family.. watch 3d movie "bolt".. the dog is so cute... ^^ haha... quite nice.. but i don really know whats the story about when it start.. =p

before going for movie... there is a high school musical dancing competition among kids... ^^ haha.. they dam cute.. just went up the stage and dance... the winner.. the small little boy immitate TROY... he so cute... haha... the 1st girl who dance not bad.. very cute.. and once reach the 2nd girl... hmm... i think she kinda scared... walao... and u know i think a couple were standing beside me... i really feel like smacking the guy.. sorry.. really cannot tahan... once the girl dance.. the boy said "sao pei la... go back sleep la.. i know y u at 1st don dare to dance la... don wan diu ga!" oh my god.. HOW OLD ARE U??? the girl is just a kid... how could u say that... means u can really go on to the stage la??? GO DANCE LA U IDIOT!!! than act like so pro said... "no matter how well u do.. if the judge don like u.. also no use!!" walaoye.. i cannot imagine u said that to a kid... siao la... i don think u are really good la... really pro ppl won said this... LOOSER!!!~~~~

ok.. enough for that idiot... don care... at night went to shangri-la again for dinner... i saw my new-born nephew... so cute... ^^ name RYAN!! heehee... eat till so full.. till i cant breath.. wahaha.. =p some more after that went to find leo.. thought yam cha... but than they having steamboat.. =p haha... so go back... =p

讨厌的心情

2008-12-15T07:44:00.000-08:00

最近的心情总是有起有落！！好讨厌这样的感觉！！一方面可能我还有一个月就出国了！！很舍不得很多东西！！！

很多事情，我很快就生气，发了脾气后，才觉得原来问题只是很简单！！很讨厌我这样的心情！！因为很情绪化！！

付出了许多东西，我只是觉得越付出，期望越大伤害越大！！我知道现在的社会人与人之间很难相信！！有时候反而是身边最亲的人出卖了自己！！但是，我很想知道，如果一直提防别人，那... 我们要相信谁？？

我知道，很多人笑我傻！！但我选择相信最后一次！！

我相信！！

VISA DONE!!!

2008-12-15T04:48:00.000-08:00

ok... today i went and did my visa... finally... everything to US is almost done... so i need to go collect my visa and i need to book my flight... will be traveling with fred and khang han... hmm.... i think the person trying to ask me question that i cant answer... ish.. but still ok la... approve d.. hehe.. =p

so basically i will be leaving around jan 12.... happy i got the opportunity to study overseas... will finish my degree... ^^ but of course... i will be very sad leaving malaysia.. leaving my family and my friends... and yes.. i know ppl say that i am dumb and stupid.. started something when leaving d... but i know myself la... i know what i am doing... :)

this few days... dam emo.. many things just din turn out nicely... EMO EMO EMO!!!! and leaving soon.. left one month... i really wanna enjoy myself... ENJOY ENJOY and only ENJOY~~~~ i wanna be like the show wild child.. and oh ya.. last thursday went out with mainstream friends to mid valley to watch movie.. haha.. thats all..

i wanna say sorry to ppl who see my emo face... sorry... i will try not to be so emo.. sorry and sorry...

gathering with another 2 seasons... =p

2008-12-15T02:33:00.000-08:00

in the car... ee teng, me and yi wei..

quite a time that we din meet each other.. as everyone was busying in different time... well... on the 10th of december.. i met up with teng and wei... as we name ourselves.. should say i name... winter teng and spring yi wei.. wahaha... li en went for vacation.. used to be a gang and always go out and shop for nonstop.. and keep gossiping together...

so we went 1u that day... ate bbq plaza... ^^ and we went for a movie.. title "twilight".. such a romantic movie.. and yi wei is crazy over edward cullen now... haha... not bad to have a vampire bf??? wahaha... never think of that... but i really think is really a nice movie... ^^ i recommend u to watch if u haven watch... ^^ is just bout romance...

nothing much to write... just gather together... and ahem.. teng... thanks for all the "education"... wahaha.... i know i know.. i get it.. =p no worries... and to wei.. no worries also... haha.. yi wei.. u should know what i mean... if u read it.. =p

next year they are leaving to monash... i am leaving to US... wish both of them all the best... ^^ and i am sure we will meet up one day.. and we will still keep in contact... yi wei.. if u wanna gossip more with me u can send email to me.. same as teng.. haha.. =p

yi wei took it when i was on the phone.. =p (in my room gossiping.. =p)

after that teng fetch wei to my house.. of course fetch me back also.. so sorry for making u to get lost... =p paiseh... lucky u are save... ^^ my responsibility... ^^ at night went to murni and find mainstream gang lo.. brought yi wei also.. wahaha... they say yi wei look like form 1... =.= yi wei u have to EAT MORE!! haha...

EMO GANG at shang-la

2008-12-15T01:17:00.000-08:00

group shot in shangri-la hotel!! EMO lester, sean, kath, roxy, me and shin

being rich on december 9... just after melaka that day.. at night... me, kath, roxy, lester, sean and yi shin... went to shangri-la... for dinner buffet... fred was sick.. so he cant make it... too bad.. =p

u know y suddenly we are so rich.. wahaha... we took the money out from techno science.. =p wahaha.. and than we EAT!!! so basically we need to pay very little only.. wahaha... we dam full wei... me, roxy and kath keep camhoring in the toilet.. so paiseh.. =p wahaha... ppl came out we pretend to wash hand.. haha... than i put the bag on the floor.. someone come in.. than 3 of us laugh.. =.= wahaha..

oh ya.. lester cannot stand the oister.. =p rich place ma.. we have to pretend to be rich.. wahaha... looking forward for next outing... MOS and SKY BAR and GENTING!! hopefully all success before we leaving... ^^ going to miss a lot of things... :(

picture time... ^^

THE FOOD WE TOOK!!!

SEAN, LESTER, SHIN - - paying money??? =p

OUR EATING POSE!! =p (don have roxy x.x)

CAMHORE TIME!!! =p

OTHER PIC!!!

the hall.. in shangri-la hotel..

group shot!!

lester trying to camhore??? =p

another shot before leaving

camhore in front of the toilet... =p

thats it... ^^ will miss everyone... all of us will be seperate and don forget out LA trip.. =p

Happy Birthday to LEO & MUN!!!

2008-12-14T19:17:00.000-08:00

YEAH!!! after their performance

leo and mun's birthday... mun went to toilet.. =p

my blog is dead for i think almost 2 weeks... will update a few blogs now... :) ok... 1st of all... last monday.. which is december 8 is leo 26th birthday and mun 18th birthday.. ok sei dong mun is legal now... wahaha.... on the 7th... mainstream got performance in niu che shui... so went to support... and on the 7th i went mid valley with dear... christmas is coming so just walk walk lo.. =p than go niu che shui find them... ^^ ok will post some picture... we celebrate birthday for mun and leo... and 2 birthday ppl FIGHT... haha... nothing much to write... but i will post some pic.. a pic meant a thousand words.. =p

^^ at mid valley ^^

leo

miao miao was cut.. =p

deborah and leo

keong.. look at mei behind.. =p

xiao mei

sean

2 birthday dude.. =p

oh my god.. they fighting.. =.=

present for leo.. from SY.. =p

present for mun.. from 4 of us...

mun's present.. dunno from who.. doremon shower cap.. =p i wander she wanna use a not.. =p

before leaving.. =p

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group shot at melaka... ^^

after that.. xiao mei came my house to overnight... and other 6 guys... =p who is dai lou leo, miao, "darling" keong(=p), william, simon and dear samuel... but all sleep in my study room.. =p haha.. on the floor.. not enough bed la.. sorry.. only xiao mei is allowed to sleep with me.. wahaha... than the next day which is december 8... we went to MELAKA... for one day trip... haha... couldn't really get up in the morning.. =p lucky dear called me to wake up.. wahaha... normally melaka will be super hot.. but that day it rain for the whole day... dam cold.. =p like going genting.. =p some more i wear shorts... @^%$^*#@* went to eat i guess... than visiting.. haha... meet alicia there.. and leo's friend siew hui.. than i met aluba teacher there.. with his friend... got shocked... =p lazy type la... will post pic...

eating dim sum.. =p

khai mei and mun

simon, mei, me, deborah, khai mei

william, deborah, me and mun

playing around.. =p

girls posing

guys posing

me and deborah finding the toilet.. =p finally we found.. =p

1 left 1 right.. wahaha.. =p

another group shot

leo selling umbrella.. =p

infront of the wall.. =p (forgot the name)

group shot

dai lou, sei dong, me, dear ^^

boys group?? F4?? =p

girls silly pose.. =p

7 flowers??? =.=

group shot again

yeah...

pointing looking at?

waiting for chicken rice.. =p

carry my bag.. =p

wilson posing?? =p

buying chendol

promoting u a new drink.. =p

eat poridge just to go to the toilet.. =p

nice place for CNY mv.. wahaha.. =p

nice.. ^^

leo "bushing" the door?? =p looks real huh? =p

macam gek sai?? =p

5 girls.. ^^ me, mei, deborah, khai mei, mun

wilson and william???!!! u both!!!!????? =p

mun and khai mei.. =p

eh... paiseh.. don look.. =p

on the way back dam jam... =p sleep in the car... kinda miss that day.. tired but enjoy... ^^

END OF COLLEGE LIFE.. WELCOME UNI IN U.S!!

2008-12-04T03:06:00.000-08:00

yeah.. finally... finish my finals... phew.. all cause of a silly woman in registry one ask me to withdraw... lucky i can sit for my finals.. thanks to the boss in registry 2... haha... guess what.. i screw up my socio finals... ~.~ but forget bout it la.. haha.. i just need it to transfer.. calculus finals.. i hope.. i really hope can get A.... *praying*...

december!! i am not going to stress myself... is time to enjoy!! phew... so december anyone pls ask me out.. haha.. i mean my friends... :)

this saturday have to sit for toefl... ^^ ENJOY ENJOY ENJOY!! haha... so i am really going to enjoy before going US....

2 feelings... sad and happy... happy because i got the oppurtunity to study in overseas... i know many ppl hope for it... sad is because.. i am sure i am going to miss my friends... everyone... aikz... miss malaysia food and EVERYONE!! going to miss singing and dancing as usual... dunno get to sing in US a not.. hope can get to enter their music club... :)

so around jan 10-14 i am leaving malaysia... :( hopefully i will be back on summer break... :) around may... so ENJOY NOW!!! ^^

my blog is "alive" again!!!

2008-11-30T00:52:00.001-08:00

2 weeks not writing my blog.. =p just because... is a little busy than before... phew... semester is over... is time for finals... =p lazy to study.. so is time for me to write my blog... hehe... ok.. i will start day by day... lets see...

stop my post on november 16... hmm... so will start.. let me think..

november 18
today is my JI MUI YUEN WAH's birthday... she is my JI MUI since form 1 till now... really appreciate her as my best best best friend... both of us have really diff character.. =p diff background mostly diff... but we can really chat on the phone non stop.. hehe... so went pyramid with her... and chat.. cause long time din see her d... hmm... than my dear came belanja her makan fish market.. =p but i was dam full la... =p haha... took many sticker photo with her... don have scanner so cant post.. =p

this pic i took with her in kar leong's farewell... 3 months ago... =p

november 20
my socio quiz 4... aiyo... wanna pengsan d... need to study 6 CHAPTERS!!! SO DAM LONG!! than need to practise for my teacher performance piano exam on 21... wuu...

so november 21
early in the morning have to go to yamaha for exam... haha... finally is over... still ok with it... hope can pass... i can only say something wrong with the exam... =.= but than don wanna write here la... not good.. =p as long as i learn something new and i had try my very best... ^^

november 22
i) went to halo forest... for practise... cause 2nd exam is just one week... and WHAT!!!??? i haven prepare anything... got one solo performance and 2 groups... alamak... sei for... singing with yi xuan... and one more group y3.. haha.. which is yean, me(yiing), charming(shu Yi)... haha... so Y3!!! =p i choose to sing jolin 日不落 and landy 热浪and also 刘力杨《我就是这样》... but only 刘力杨《我就是这样》approve by them... so dunno what dancing song to choose.. so i choose to sing by2 ... and y3 group 爱的主打歌 and SHE "super model" also not approve... ish... only 特务J... so we decided to sing SHE 《宇宙小姐》... aikz... lucky me and yi xuan 草戒指 and 为你而活 got approved... so is time to practise...

ii) hehe.. went out with dear.. he gave me something special.. everything make by him... =p really cant imagine that... cause me myself as a girl cant make it... haha... post it here la.. =p

the whole thing made by him.. ^^ don think i can sew any small thing by myself.. =p

november 23
i) although is a sunday... went breakfast with family.. but came back very fast cause need to study and prepare speech for public speaking... ish ish ish...
ii) at night went to ss2 wong kok yam cha with chester, mun and dear... and after that to DAVIS with EMO gang.. haha.. GENG..

november 24
today went to college for public speaking class.. wander today will be my turn of giving speech a not.. lucky not my turn.. cause i am not really prepared... and study calculus because got quiz on the next day.. wuu.. and the assignment due date also.. walao...

november 25
calculus quiz.. and assignment due date... SHIT!! din do really well for my quiz... shit shit shit... aikz... and assignment i copy only.. =p haha... after class prepare speech cause next day will be my presentation... wa... at night i practise my singing and dancing for halo forest exam... TIRED~~~

november 26
presentation time... presented on DARK CHOCOLATES!!! hehe... quite happy with my speech... :) hope next time go US can really speak in public... and than after class i went to halo forest to practise my exam song and dance on november 29... finally gao dim 90% of the dance d... YES!!! at night came back and prepare slides for sociology presentation.. dam TIRED~~ cannot really open my eyes... roxy is sick.. so i help her to do some slides... dana throat pain cant present.. so i took mostly all the part.. is ok la.. i read only.. =p

november 27
today is my last class in college... and than FINALS!!! shoud say "bye HELP".. haha... so socio presentation din do really well cause read only.. =p nvm la.. haha... than calculus don really had class.. just discuss some question and get back the quiz marks... after class go back home and than go straight to halo.. practise with yean and charmine... 1st time practise!! OH SHIT!!! need to learn the dance... aikz... also almost gao dim le... haha... 90% also...

november 28
need to go back to college... cause need to find miss naini to inform her that i am going to DRAKE... silly la.. other uni no reply.. so i have no choice la... arh... and than idiot help email never send my exam docket.. and silly registry lady ask me withdrawel and now I DON HAVE STUDENT CARD AND EXAM DOCKET!!! HOW TO SIT FOR FINALS!!!???? arh.... don care 1st la.. there will be a way... =p after college go find dear and than terus go halo.. till late at night to practise... solo thing and with y3... not really prepared but nvm la.. no choice d...

november 29
i) HALO 2nd EXAM!!! i am the 4th to go in for my solo exam... so my comment was... "nice planning for performance... really put my heart to plan the whole thing... but i wanna show too many things till everything not full out... and i never concentrate on the performance where i can easily attract by small little things.. like when the judge is talking i will look at them... they say as an artist i can't do that.. don really have eye contact with judge... and i sang a rock song, sing and dance plus another dance... this time really i plan everything myself wei... quite happy with myself actually.. haha... david lao shi say got chance ask me to learn more from ICECREAM teacher... cause he say somehow he saw my dance... my hand is faster than my leg... =p (got such things??) maybe i seldom perform solo dance ba... haha.. so in conclusion is... everything have to update myself more.. even in dancing or any performance... need to give full out!!!"...
after solo exam.. i waited for 5 hours!!! than only group.. luckily group no need to give comment... quite happy with my group performance with y3 and also with yi xuan... very happy to group with u all.. ^^

just took some pic with few ppl...

xiao xiao li

yean

my dai lou kk.. long time never take pic with him d... (we both thin d.. =p) haha..

leng lui charmine

funny jason

cute shiki

zhong jie

y3 + thomas and kk

yi xuan

(due to some reasons.. my memory card a bit cacat so some of the pic had been deleted.. :( lucky some pic can "save") haha.. thanks to some1 lo.. =p

ii) after my exam... went out with dear to a restaurant... ^^ for candle light dinner.. =p haha... nice place... same hotel with luna bar.. =p can so call celebrate one month la.. =p haha... thanks for the gift.. ^^ and everything... and he very action lo.. =p we went up to luna bar.. just to walk... CAN U IMAGINE WENT TO AN EXPENSIVE PLACE JUST TO WALK!!!?? =p like rich ppl.. haha.. because he got a card can go in for free... =p (look like VIP) haha... =p

november 30
which is today... =p morning went out with family... is time to prepare for finals.. =p calculus 3 and sociology.. lazy to study now.. =p so post this blog... haha... need to book my time to do my visa.. and also book my flight to US.. if not no need to study d.. =p haha...

UPCOMING EVENT!!!!
-- FINALS
-- TOEFL EXAM
-- MELAKA TRIP
-- DO MY STUDENT VISA
-- GO OUT WITH EMO GANG
-- GO OUT WITH JI MUI YUEN WAH
-- GO OUT WITH 4 SEASONS
-- FIND MY FRIENDS
-- GO OUT WITH DEAR =p

In conclusion, ENJOY GAO GAO BEFORE GOING US!!!!

JUST DON FEEL LIKE SLEEPING!!!

2008-11-16T10:30:00.000-08:00

ok... now is 2.30am... and i really don feel like sleeping.. still online.. chatting and posting.. cant sleep... many things in my head... today went to summit to watch mainstream miny concert and went to the gardens watch movie.. than meet my mainstream darlings... haha...

read keong's blog.... aiyo... keong... y everytime u write also dam touching wan.. u wan make me cry gao gao only u happy meh.. haha.. =p i am happy now.. cause of many things le... hehe.... i suddenly feel very emo.. and cry easily.. cause i am really leaving soon... to US... for my studies... i really will miss many ppl... many many ppl.... :(

don talk bout sad things... i wanna write something stupid.. really stupid.. and i dam gao paiseh.. ok ppl.. u imagine la.. u go dating suddenly u cannot walk because ur shoes spoilt... dam swt right... #$($#@#*^@* walk walk half way suddenly shoes came off... walaoye... i wan kill myself lo.. i suddenly feel that walk 10 meter is dam far lo.. i feel like asking ppl to KILL me.. haha... but thanks to my dear la... he go help me go find shoes.. and he dam YIM JIM wan lo.. haha.. ask him simply buy he go choose so long.. i stand there.. IMAGINE la.. I CANNOT MOVE AR... or u can say I DON DARE TO MOVE... =.= the feeling dam stupid right... standing there.. i called my ji mui.. see mun.. laugh like mad... roxy.. also laugh like mad... yuen wah... laugh like mad also.. walaoye.... but the shoes... really nice la.. =p i tell see mun what ever ah po shoes i also wear la... cause I CANT CHOOSE... heehee.. but the wedges he choose for me dam nice la.. haha.. =p

THERE IS IT!!!

not bad huh??? haha.. =p

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and oh ya.. yesterday kiyoshi teach us SEXY DANCE!!! wahaha... is SWEET JAZZ?? i dunno what is it call d.. =p wahaha.. i feel myself very funny.. =p yesterday is yew ming's birthday.. after my halo practise we went to his house for birhtday party... sing again... haha... will post the pic... (from the pic.. the boy holding flower is yew ming and the girl is his gf...)

xiao mei

what are we posting.. eh dear y u sit till so nice.. =p

my dear samuel..

they like to bully me... =p

i holding the singing paper.. the lyrics

william and sean singing

pose^^

xiao mei again

my mainstream family...

playing limbo rock

my prince keong not bad ar.. =p

emily

fei fei... ^^ so long never see her... miss her and her voice =p

william and emily prac song for performance (next day) =p

what a nice post before leaving =p

group shot before leaving

leo jump up to my dear samuel's car... =p alicia look like ghost in this pic.. and the hand on top of me is xiao mei's hand.. haha... =p

oh my god.. leo wanna drive the car... but he cant drive cause manual.. =p and look at me.. =p

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today mainstream concert.. me and mun did something funny...we hands up to answer question.. than mun yee is the host.. go and ask see mun "whats ur name.." (to act like dunno each other... host ma.. =p ) than mun go and say "my name is JOEY".. wahaha... than lucky draw pulak write her original name.. than they call "CHAN SEE MUN".. wahaha.. than my turn... i went up to sing quincy song... than she asked me.. "whats ur name..." i go and say "EMILY".. wahaha.. i dunno y i wanna say emily... but i just wanna play emily who is behind the stage.. wahaha... i really feel like laughing wei... haha... wahahahahahaha... =p

keong

my dear and emily

khai mei

ji mui ah mun

william

elliot

xiao mei

haha.. me as "emily".. singing on the stage... =p look at mei.. =p

feelings for the week..

2008-11-11T03:30:00.000-08:00

hmm... long time never post d... so today this is my 3rd post... this few week so forgetfull... 1st.. i forgot that got dancing replacement class... 2nd.. appoinment alot also don remember... and rushing for the silly socio assignment last min... and many things to emo!!! argh... gek sei ngo...

drake accepted me... ^^ hehe... i hope to get reply soon from other uni... and oh yea.. i am addicted to go to the pub.. =p my college friends THE GANG OF EMO also cannot stand me... =p haha.. cause i ask them to go pub... haha... =p

i miss my black hair... haha... cause i highlighted my hair.. and erm... got ppl say i look like "ah lian"... oh shit!!! =p haha... i post some pic...

i think the colour somehow.. got diff...

and.. erm.. i am kinda happy la... recieve something from some1... haha... love it a lot... ^^ erm.. if u all wanna know who ask me personal.. =p mainstream friends don ask.. haha... =p cause u all know d... =p

feel so relax after handing up the assignment... still got one more speech... 2 more quiz.. and one more assignment.. and my teacher piano performance exam coming!!! shit!!!

later go out chill with emo gang.. =p

puay chai performance - my brother

2008-11-11T01:37:00.000-08:00

obviously not i perform.. went back to my primary school.. to watch my brother performance.. wa.. my brother can dance wo.. haha.. i also shock... =p

see their performance... reminds me of my primary school time where i join singing and dancing.. haha... but now their performance better than our previous...

kids nowadays like getting smarter wo... the performance all so creative hehe... later if can i post my brother video up here.. =p now post some pic...

wa... nowadays primary also got drum society d.. i mean chinese drum

violin player... dam geng!!

the dance club... the reprisent of the school... used to be last time.. haha..

wa... now also got chinese ochestra d ar??? gu zheng solo

the chinese ochestra

drum player

another dance from the dancing society... this costume.. =p i think i wear before last time wei.. haha..

the whole group.. combination from st.1 - 6

sisters!!! cello and violin

wao.. nice ^^

walao.. primary student singing duet love song some more...

wahaha.. i caught a silly pose when my bro was dancing.. their dance title "fusion"

the girls in the group

ending!! NICE!!!

part of members in my bro group..